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AlanFromWichita
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I have experienced a great deal of healing from the troubled thoughts I used to have. I ended up with a rather strange strategy toward those “ugly creatures” when they show themselves in my thoughts or words or actions; I do not judge them or resist them. That way they think they can escape all by themselves, and often do, without borrowing my speech processing center and picking up a harmful comment along the way!Well, folks, at about this time, I am considered a mental issue…or tissue…who knows? Psychiatric assessment is not even important!I guess Fr Groeschel was right…when we enter into ourselves by the grace of god and find out some very ugly things, it ain’t no picnic. Just wish I had someone to talk to…methinks my spiritual director ain’t up to this! Oh well…maybe take a retreat and allow the Lord to pluck every ugly creature that is lurking in the corners. In the meantime, I will hibernate within my own little chapel within my heart and sleep it away. The pain is too much to bear especially if I am not understood…but what do I do with my child crying all the time?
Anyhoo, I can’t speak as well as you guys about all of this but I do wish you a very blessed Lent.
If I become angry or upset that they are about to get out and wreak havoc, then that challenges them to split forces and let some of it out and leave some in to try again to find the light of day next time they get half an excuse.
It’s mostly about fear and judgment. We are taught to judge all of our thoughts, and this process has become so automatic that ideas we might not have even noticed become a distraction as our “inner judge” is so busy with sentencing requests he can only keep putting the guilty parties “back out on the street.”
I’m writing metaphorically or at least intending to here. If this post makes sense to you, then maybe you should be very careful about admitting it because it does to me too!
Alan