I’m kind of embarassed to share this.
I saw it a year ago when it came out. I went by myself on the day before Palm Sunday. I left stunned.
I bought the DVD as soon as it came out and occasionally I felt called to watch it. It does not always affect me because of my employment history I am somewhat deadened to the type of violence shown. (That’s not to say it completely doesn’t have an effect).
Anyway, I meant to watch it last nigth but I was like the apostles…I couldn’t stay awake. So this afternoon I finished it, hoping to end it at 3 as I planned to pray the Divine Mercy.
Even though it wasn’t done I felt called to pray the chaplet. So I knelt in my livingroom without interrupting the movie, and it was the end…during the crucifixion.
At the end of the chaplet (and mind you, I’d had a snack less than 1 hour before this), I started to black out. I was wondering why I wasn’t feeling the same emotion and such. Then I started to black out just as I finished the chaplet.
I was still kneeling and waiting for this to pass, but it just got darker. I could barely speak.
I ended up face first of my livingroom floor, sobbing. (I’m so glad I don’t live with anyone)
I had no idea this movie could still affect me, especially in such a huge way. I had no idea I could be affected in that manner.
I’m not sure really how to feel about this. I don’t know why this happened and I have no health problems.
Obviously this movie can affect us in ways we can’t alway understand…that is, if God is choosing to work through it.