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Paris_Blues
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When I was younger, I had so many bad situations and rejections that I developed the habit of actually hating all people (now for your info, I’m working on becoming a more loving person…it’s hard but I know our Lord will help).
In the past 17 so years, I’ve been treated like chopped liver, was hated, called names, etc. Racist comments were thrown at me and I absoulutely hated my race and all races, heck I even thought racist comments about other people eventhough I didn’t mean it. Contradicts, I know. That doesn’t make sense, or does it?
Still, up to this day, the habit of being hateful and name calling in my mind and some other non-Christian thoughts keep poping up in my head and I KNOW hatred is a violent word and thing to do and I’m trying to get rid of it but the habit is like a part of who I am and I just can’t seem to get rid of it.
Any suggestions how to “get rid” of this because I know it’s sin? Now sometimes thoughts will just arbitrarily pop up in my mind if I see something and then I quickly TRY to get it out of my mind but the harder I try, the more it comes and it’s just complete torture.
???
In the past 17 so years, I’ve been treated like chopped liver, was hated, called names, etc. Racist comments were thrown at me and I absoulutely hated my race and all races, heck I even thought racist comments about other people eventhough I didn’t mean it. Contradicts, I know. That doesn’t make sense, or does it?
Still, up to this day, the habit of being hateful and name calling in my mind and some other non-Christian thoughts keep poping up in my head and I KNOW hatred is a violent word and thing to do and I’m trying to get rid of it but the habit is like a part of who I am and I just can’t seem to get rid of it.
Any suggestions how to “get rid” of this because I know it’s sin? Now sometimes thoughts will just arbitrarily pop up in my mind if I see something and then I quickly TRY to get it out of my mind but the harder I try, the more it comes and it’s just complete torture.
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