“The worst thing is not sin, it is the denial of sin.” - Venerable Fulton Sheen
Brother, how commendable and edifying for others to see you not only publicly admit your sins and weaknesses, but also to seek help for them! It chokes me up not just to see a fellow Christian brother struggle with the temptations of sin, but to admit full culpability in spite of the possible shame and guilt you could encounter.
Our Blessed Lord said that those who are forgiven much, love much. I have no doubt, by what is displayed in your post, that God will make you, yes you, into a great Saint! You have the right, not the privilege, but the right to God’s mercy. Trust in God’s endless Mercy, allow Him to hold your hand through your temptations, and never despair when you fall; for the just man falls seven times a day and Our Lord forgives us seven times seventy. I will include you in my Rosary intentions for daily courage, brother. May God love you and bless you!