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Sitka
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I am really struggling right now with my faith and religion. Two years ago I was about 99% sure that I was called to be a nun, had visited a community and was working on steps to apply etc. Then I met a guy and thought, well, maybe God is trying to tell me something because I have never wanted to date before. So I explored that and we got serious and I moved across the country. We are not married and I am not sure that it is going that way. I think about the convent All The Time. I haven’t been to Mass in … I don’t even know how long. Partly because I feel that confession is serious business and I can’t go in and confess something without truly believing in my heart that I am trying to change. I don’t want it to be a revolving door. Now here we are on Good Friday and it’s my last chance to confess before Easter. Part of me says go, that I can’t even begin to think that I will amend my life without the grace of God and another part of me says that it’s wrong to go without a firm resolve to change my life. I honestly don’t know how I have found myself in this position considering that I was verbally accepted by a religious community two years ago and now I don’t even know if I should go to confession. Any help here is appreciated. Sorry for not being brief.