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MtLevi
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I’ve perused a number of “wrong/missed/ignored vocation” threads. I’ve done more than my fair share of backwards discernment and feel that I have ignored a call to monastic life. My discernment period was fraught with fear, confusion and traumatic interactions. (I’ll admit I was really angling for marriage.) I did feel some peace thinking about monastic life, but I felt most like myself when I was looking for a wife. I found a tremendous woman just over 10 years ago. We have 3 beautiful children now. I still get “ants in the pants” anxiety about rushing over to a monastery. My pastor and deacon have reassured me that God doesn’t work that way.
So, if I am in fact living a less than “ideal” vocation for myself, then I’d be living apart from His Will, correct?
If so, then is our marriage (not in His Will, but allowed) and our children (not in His Will, but allowed) from Satan?
In regards to wideness in mercy, is there really wideness in it? Vocation writings from the saints sound rather dire (and pretty terrifying) compared to some of the reassurances made by fellow posters on this forum.
Right about now, I’m feeling rather irredeemable.
Prayers, insights…
Thanks.
So, if I am in fact living a less than “ideal” vocation for myself, then I’d be living apart from His Will, correct?
If so, then is our marriage (not in His Will, but allowed) and our children (not in His Will, but allowed) from Satan?
In regards to wideness in mercy, is there really wideness in it? Vocation writings from the saints sound rather dire (and pretty terrifying) compared to some of the reassurances made by fellow posters on this forum.
Right about now, I’m feeling rather irredeemable.
Prayers, insights…
Thanks.