I am trying to link up this part of what you said with his long held knowledge of his own type of death, and trying to more profoundly understand how such knowledge (of his) helps us in the here and now, both that he died and that we die. “…though he may die, yet he shall live forever…”
You spoke in your post of “knowledge of a prior condition”. Yes, that is a knowing ahead of time. If I read you correctly, that is a knowledge of some type of impending “evil” that either could or would approach one day, and apparently it did.
With Jesus, it was his intention to be himself (to be the Messiah) and to endure the brutality and death of that position, thus saying goodbye to living. His soul “knew” he was from God, the divine Son, but his soul could only “see” whatever were before his human eyes, probably much more clearly than we see.
Our eyes cannot see the resurrection coming, they can only envision the end of seeing, our ears the end of hearing, our thoughts the end of thinking. Actually, we cannot perceive our souls with our senses, so death appears to be the end of all, to our senses. Yet we know death is not what ought to be. So when we see death, approach it knowingly, we “perceive” it as final and the end of perceiving, breathing, living. And it is only another “knowing” that cries out, “I shall still see God, in my Flesh, even though I die”.
Jesus walked toward his death, letting go of seeing, hearing, thinking, breathing, although he loved doing all of them. His goal was to be the spotless lamb of the covenant for us with God, so that we could have a final sacrifice that would make us new creatures when we partake of him, participate him.
Jesus told his disciples of “his condition” that we was going to Jerusalem to be that lamb of God, and that he would be crucified and rise on the third day. That was that “second type of knowing” I mentioned, where he know that “in his flesh, rising again, he would see God, his Father, and see his disciples again”. You tell of your condition with the first type of knowing, that it was told to you even in childhood, so you knew it when it happened (if I read correctly and it did happen). But you can also speak to those around you with that second type of knowing; being baptized and confirmed you are one of the elect, chosen and baptized into the People of the Covenant by that People, the Church. Why? to be evidence in the world and to the world of the hope we have. Jesus was “being himself, the Messiah” when he faced death. We are being the Elect, the Special People of God in the World, being the “ourselves” of our new birth, when we claim to the ears of the world who thinks we are gone when we die, “I know I shall rise, see God in my flesh; I know in whom I have believed, and am persuaded that neither death nor life nor angels nor principalities, etc. shall separate me from the love of God in my King, my Christ, Jesus.”
I hope that is the tie-in you were thinking of.
John Martin