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de_Tocqueville
Guest
I am preparing to start RCIA this fall, but am now becoming very distressed and questioning if I’m ready. I feel God has been calling me to the Catholic Church pretty strongly since the period of Lent earlier this year, and with a lesser intensity for a few years now. I grew up and was baptised in a very traditional independent Calvinist Reformed Baptist Church (which I no longer live near and none of my family still attend there), and Catholicism is very different from the faith I was raised in. Over the years, however, the problems with sola scriptura, authority, and other doctrinal issues in Calvinism have become evident to me.
So after attending mass for a month and a half or so now and talking with a priest about RCIA last week, one thing I need to confirm is the details of my baptism. I remember being baptised when I was probably 8 or 9 years old, however, I have no documentation on this (other than a photograph), do not know the date, and do not know if the triune formula was invoked. The pastor that baptised me has long since left the church of my youth, but I called the new pastor who I know only a little bit to ask if the church has any record of my baptism. Because baptism was given so little emphasis in this church, he told me he doesn’t know if the church has record of it. My parents are also no help on this as they never considered it important I guess. I also wanted to be straight with him so I told him I think God is calling me to the Catholic Church. I knew his reaction would probably not be positive, but I was pretty taken aback when his first response was, “Well, all I can tell you is that God is not calling you to the Catholic Church…I don’t even consider Catholicism Christianity, it’s another religion.” He went on, “they won’t accept your baptism,” and basically said he wouldn’t support the Catholic Church’s accepting my baptism. My heart is in such turmoil now, I don’t know what to do and feel like I have no church and my baptism was completely meaningless.
On top of all this, despite a good priest, the seeming lack of conservative orthodoxy in the community of the parish I’ve been attending, and the absence of any other young people like me, is making me afraid that my RCIA experience and life in this parish community will not be filling. I’m in a very liberal area and am feeling discouraged by the seeming lack of “good” Catholics around me.
Please pray for me and offer any insight.
So after attending mass for a month and a half or so now and talking with a priest about RCIA last week, one thing I need to confirm is the details of my baptism. I remember being baptised when I was probably 8 or 9 years old, however, I have no documentation on this (other than a photograph), do not know the date, and do not know if the triune formula was invoked. The pastor that baptised me has long since left the church of my youth, but I called the new pastor who I know only a little bit to ask if the church has any record of my baptism. Because baptism was given so little emphasis in this church, he told me he doesn’t know if the church has record of it. My parents are also no help on this as they never considered it important I guess. I also wanted to be straight with him so I told him I think God is calling me to the Catholic Church. I knew his reaction would probably not be positive, but I was pretty taken aback when his first response was, “Well, all I can tell you is that God is not calling you to the Catholic Church…I don’t even consider Catholicism Christianity, it’s another religion.” He went on, “they won’t accept your baptism,” and basically said he wouldn’t support the Catholic Church’s accepting my baptism. My heart is in such turmoil now, I don’t know what to do and feel like I have no church and my baptism was completely meaningless.
On top of all this, despite a good priest, the seeming lack of conservative orthodoxy in the community of the parish I’ve been attending, and the absence of any other young people like me, is making me afraid that my RCIA experience and life in this parish community will not be filling. I’m in a very liberal area and am feeling discouraged by the seeming lack of “good” Catholics around me.
Please pray for me and offer any insight.