When I was in fifth grade I recall Sister Marie Raymond telling us about all the “beautiful changes” made by “Vatican II”. “Before Vatican II the Mass was entirely in Latin, the priest celebrated Mass with his back to the people and the altar railing was there, seemingly dividing the presence of God and the people in the congregation.”
That day I was to serve Mass for our school’s attendance of Mass for “First Friday”. I never saw what “used to be” the “Altar” because all the altars I saw did not have a tabernacle on them and were not up against a wall.
When preparing the Sanctuary for Mass something caught my eye on the floor underneath what appeared to me to be the Altar. It was metal brackets, that propped up the “altar” I saw. I looked closer and found that this “altar” was constructed of 2x4’s and plywood and bolted into the marble floor. It was covered completely in a green cloth. It seemed out of place, for such a beautiful church, to even be in the building. It was ugly, completely ugly, and it made cracks in the floor, where the nails went to secure it and make it immovable.
Upon seeing this I faded backward and bumped into what the Taberbacle was on. I turned around and placed my hand on it and a voice inside me said, “This is the Altar of God.” I turned around and started becoming very upset. I saw the Altar rail and remembered what sister told us, “No more kneeling for communion at a rail”- one of those “beautiful changes”.
I could only imagine what Mass was like, back then, before what I then considered to be a great evil, “Vatican II” who put that “monstrosity” (makeshift table) before the Altar of God and no longer required the use of the communion rail.
That was then, way back in fifth grade, 1978.
Then in my adult life I came to Catholic Answers for answers on the Catholic Faith, through “This Rock” magazine that was left at my then parish at the baptismal font. I learned what Protestants believed and how what they believed contrasted the Catholic Faith.
I learned how to defend the Catholic Faith through Catholic Answers to those who tried to convert me.
I also saw, at the baptismal font, next to “This Rock” magazine, a pamphlet entitled “Communion in the hand…why?”. It was published by those who used to run the parish I now belong to.
At that time I was training altar boys and was confronted by a Protestant on the Catholic Faith. She wanted to convert me to her “Fundamentalist” faith. Catholic Answers was instrumental in helping me obtain the information I needed to defend the faith and stay Catholic.
At my former parish, when they came out with “Altar girls” I resigned from training altar boys. I was really hurt by this. I mean I watched how “altar girls” happened. I also watched years ago how “communion in the hand” happened, being told back then that it “is a liturgical expression of the fact that we are all priests.” (Protestant theology) [Even Sister Marie Raymond taught us that it was sacreligious for anyone’s hands to touch the sacred host, except for the priest- for his hands are consecrated so that he can touch the Sacred Host.]
Then, in 1999 I went to Mass at the church I was baptized in. This was “supposed to be” my parish, since it was in the town I lived in…it is just that I grew up in the former parish as a child and never stopped going to Mass there, no matter where I moved to as a young adult.
The way Mass was celebrated by Fr. Walker that day made me want to throw up. He is a “charismatic” and celebrates Mass abominably. I mean they all chant in tongues along with him and raise their right hands (like saluting Adolf Hitler) at the end of the reading of the Gospel and also at the consecration of the Host and chalice. He also broke the Host before the consecration, not to mention using a plain wine glass and no vestments save for alb and stole.
When I saw these things I refused to receive Holy Communion because I had doubts of the validity of his Mass. I mean the priest “must intend on doing what the Church does” in order for it to be valid, and breaking the Host before consecration tells me he is not intending on offering the Body and Blood of Jesus Christ to the Triune God.
I then remembered St. Joes, way back in 5’th grade, when Sister told us that Mass used to be celebrated differently than now. I searched this out and found out about the Lefebvre “schism” and the Papal Indult “Ecclesia Dei Afflicta”. I also found a location of “The Traditional Latin Mass according to the Roman Missal of 1962” approved by the Diocese.
It was the same as who published that pamphlet I found at the baptismal font.
I went to my first every TLM “High Mass” in 1999. I was so moved and overcome by it all, tears were in my eyes the entire time and chills ran down my spine. I was not just overwhelmed with the power of the Holy Spirit from what I witnessed that day, I also became very upset, very upset that all of this was taken from us.
Ken