Adrian, you have asked about hell, eternal damnation etc. in literally a dozen threads. You have been given citations from the Catechism of the Catholic Church, documents from the Fathers of the Church, quotations from theologians ranging from St. Augustine to St. Thomas Aquinas to the current day. It appears that English is not your first language, though you manage to convey your thoughts clearly, but surely by now you have been able to garner several sources, as people have given you chapters, verses, names, etc. so that if necessary you can find translations in your own language. Above all, might I recommend that you write down and take the list of the citations that people have been at great pains to give you, trying to help you, to your parish priest and ask him to help you understand what you are obviously having difficulty with.
In the end, if you find yourself still doubting, may I respectfully suggest that you simply submit to the will of God, tell Him that you struggle but that you will respect Him and His teachings which through the Holy Spirit and the Catholic Church have been painstakingly detailed for you. . .and then LET. IT. GO and move on?
Right now you’re doing an endless cycle of 'what if, why not, shouldn’t it be" and that’s taking all your time and effort and so you’re not spending time worshiping God, praying to God, or loving your neighbor. All you’re doing is arguing, arguing, and arguing, and getting farther and farther away from actually listening to God or following Him. And that’s sad.
I will pray that you follow this advice, and that if you open your heart to God’s will, you will come to either understand and accept, or accept that you don’t understand.