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Hello,
This is my first post and I hope I’m doing this properly.
I’m an author and write a very popular romantic suspense series. However, I’ve recently returned to my Catholic faith and am now ashamed of my books. They are well written, solid plots, characters people love and often have some kind of social theme or lesson (prejudice, over coming your past etc.) but I now realize there is way too much sex especially in the earlier books.
I’ve confessed to God, did a penance at home until I can get to confession (darn pandemic has all our churches locked down) but I feel I need to do something about the books. I started to edit them thinking I’d get rid of the offensive scenes (e.g., they looked at each other longingly…he kissed her and then carried her to the bedroom… then cut to the next morning or have the phone ring and interrupt them before they get to the bedroom) but is that enough? (BTW I write much better than that, lol!)
In some of the plots, pre-marital sex is key (in one the female lead gets pregnant but keeps her baby- that was my anti-abortion plug - and sometimes it establishes character) so I can’t make the books completely free of sex though I can keep it mostly off the page. But even still I’m promoting a non-catholic value. Ugh.
I’ve thought about unpublishing the whole series however I do earn quite a bit from them and a large percentage of that goes to charity. It’s actually one of the things I’m known for and why the books took off in the first place. Of course, even if the money goes to charity, if it is earned from something that is wrong, that’s not good either.
And then I worry about the books that are out there and I can never get back and what if they are leading others to have impure thoughts. I’ve started praying the Divine Mercy Chaplet daily in the hope that will help both me and those readers.
My editor thinks I’m crazy. She says there are lots of books out there way more graphic than mine and I know she’s correct but I still want to try to fix this. I’ve tried asking Jesus what to do. One day I had a strong feeling that editing was the right thing and it was such a relief. I sat down and got to work but then a few days later it felt like removing the books from the market was right.
I’m getting knots in my stomach over this. What do you think?
This is my first post and I hope I’m doing this properly.
I’m an author and write a very popular romantic suspense series. However, I’ve recently returned to my Catholic faith and am now ashamed of my books. They are well written, solid plots, characters people love and often have some kind of social theme or lesson (prejudice, over coming your past etc.) but I now realize there is way too much sex especially in the earlier books.
I’ve confessed to God, did a penance at home until I can get to confession (darn pandemic has all our churches locked down) but I feel I need to do something about the books. I started to edit them thinking I’d get rid of the offensive scenes (e.g., they looked at each other longingly…he kissed her and then carried her to the bedroom… then cut to the next morning or have the phone ring and interrupt them before they get to the bedroom) but is that enough? (BTW I write much better than that, lol!)
In some of the plots, pre-marital sex is key (in one the female lead gets pregnant but keeps her baby- that was my anti-abortion plug - and sometimes it establishes character) so I can’t make the books completely free of sex though I can keep it mostly off the page. But even still I’m promoting a non-catholic value. Ugh.
I’ve thought about unpublishing the whole series however I do earn quite a bit from them and a large percentage of that goes to charity. It’s actually one of the things I’m known for and why the books took off in the first place. Of course, even if the money goes to charity, if it is earned from something that is wrong, that’s not good either.
And then I worry about the books that are out there and I can never get back and what if they are leading others to have impure thoughts. I’ve started praying the Divine Mercy Chaplet daily in the hope that will help both me and those readers.
My editor thinks I’m crazy. She says there are lots of books out there way more graphic than mine and I know she’s correct but I still want to try to fix this. I’ve tried asking Jesus what to do. One day I had a strong feeling that editing was the right thing and it was such a relief. I sat down and got to work but then a few days later it felt like removing the books from the market was right.
I’m getting knots in my stomach over this. What do you think?
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