Well, if I had to take a wild guess, you might possibly be talking about mental illness, which I can definitely relate to on some level since I have depression and ADD. If mental illness is part of the problem, keep trying to find a treatment that works, by going to the best doctors you can find. That is what I’m doing.
In the end, some of us are called to keep carrying a particular cross. But there is redemptive value in our suffering when we can’t break free from it if we offer it up in union with Christ’s passion.
If you’re still misunderstood by even those you love, this can be even more of a cross, I know. Don’t stop praying.
Sorry if this falls short. God Bless You. You might be benefited by going into specifics, and if you prefer, a christian therapist might be a good option. I know it could be a number of possibilities yous struggle with.