I think it’s good to be a skeptic, because in your search you really go over things with a fine-toothed comb, so if you do come to believe, you believe it strongly.
So if you come to believe Catholic teaching, you don’t want to remain Catholic? Not sure I understand that part. I can understand searching for God in Catholic territory, like I searched for God in Protestant territory before coming back to Catholicism because I felt Catholicism seemed more biblical, IMO.
I realize this is a particularly large forum and that I will probably have to reiterate it several times, both in thread in in private message.
I was raised Catholic, confirmed and everything. I left the Church, and truth be told, I came back to it very reluctantly because I disagree with Rome on enough things.
What I consider my religion to be is “theist, with recognition of afterlife”
I am on a fairly recent spiritual journey with the intention of practicing as many religions as possible. I may revisit one or more religions more than once (like Catholicism). I started with Catholicism because it is familiar territory, and truth be told, even in my rejection of its theology and morality, I liked a lot of the customs and practices.
My intention is to hunt God relentlessly, until I catch him. Of course, this will only happen after my death, so I figure I’ll be stalking around in some dark woods for at least, hopefully, 5 decades (I am in my early 30s). I expect to take something away from each religion, even as I leave it.
What I expect to take away from Catholicism is forgiveness, as well as the recognition that people who have gone before me can be addressed and ask advice/intercession from (veneration of saints).
Aside from the fact that I’ve always had a soft spot for science, which demands a skeptical view point, the fact that I’m on a spiritual journey in the first place means that I have to put everything on a finely tuned scale.
I will note however, that it is very easy for me to meditate while praying the rosary in Latin. Possibly because Latin is not my primary language.
Even when I move on from Catholicism, I may well maintain a presence on this forum, if I find that I have made enough worthwhile contacts. We shall see. I have given myself a deadline of a year from my first confession, which I expect to be this Saturday.