Why do I feel so rotten when I pray right after being mad than when I'm not

[AltarSoldier]

Ive had those days where I lost my tempter with someone and when I am getting closer to my half hour-hour of prayer and meditation I just feel so rotten, like I KNOW i am going to pray but somehow I feel so frustrated with myself because I willingly gave into the sin of anger. Compared to those days where everything is going great and I am looking forward to praying whether im in the state of grace or not.
It almost feels as if God is looking at me praying with a raised eyebrow (even though I know that he is merciful and wants to hear my prayers). This is more with the sin of anger than lust, or greed. Maybe I just hate the feeling of using my mouth to praise and adore God right after using it to be uncharitable and spiteful towards my neighbor.

 

[Irishmom2]

Have you ever thought about getting professional help for your anger? It is clear that this is something you are aware of and that it bothers you. (Your other thread about anger and games) It may be something to look into. Life would be much more pleasant if you had your anger in check.

 

[Annie]

St Matthew 5:24: Leave there thy offering before the altar, and go first to be reconciled to thy brother: and then coming thou shalt offer thy gift.

If you think of your prayer as an offering, then maybe you feel bothered because you have done nothing to set things straight after your loss of temper?

I think you would feel much better overall if you learned new ways of acting when you feel angry. Sometimes you need to do something about the situation, but something other than losing your temper.

Other times, you might need to learn to deal with the situation in a different way. My life significantly improved when I considered that sometimes I act like a jerk and it’s because I had a bad day, I feel sick, I’m afraid I’ll be laid off, I had a fight with my brother… so when people such as store clerks act like jerks to me, I assume it is a temporary problem, I don’t take it personally, then I can let it slide.

There are all kinds of ways to deal with a bad temper, and you can learn to deal with it differently. And a quick way to do so would be to see a counselor of some sort.