Hi,
If God ever ignored you, you would cease to exist. He affirms you with your every heartbeat. “If He is truly a loving father-figure, He would want to have some sort of relationship with me and communicate to-with me in a way I could recognize and understand.” You should hear yourself. So you are disgruntled because He isn’t conforming to your standards?
He speaks to you on His terms all the time. And I don’t mean just through His creation. He speaks to you by the gift of faith that He has given you. He speaks to you from every crucifix you have ever seen. But most of all He speaks to you from the chalice on the altar which contains the blood that He willingly shed for you.
Think of this: we are attracted to the good in things and then love them for that reason. But when God loves things, He makes them loveable by loving them. When we look at a crucifix and see how much He loves us, we also see how loveable we are! All of this is Jesus speaking to us. But we have to be focussed on Him and not what we want from Him.
As for the good feelings that you want, He obviously has not determined that such would be the best for you at this time. Mother Teresa went without such gratification for twenty years. But He still spoke to her through the graces He gave her. I’m sure she would tell you at this time, that such gratification is worth waiting for.
Fr. Vincent Serpa, O.P.
