Dear Miseri,
As I took this matter to prayer, I had the remembrance of a scripture that might help you to see the value in what I tried to say above. It dealt with a penitent woman. Try to imagine the entire scene fully. She poured out her whole being at Jesus’s feet, bathing them with her tears, drying them with her hair, perfuming them with oil, while those at table wondered greatly that He was allowing this touch from a notorious sinner.
I remember Jesus saying something like, “Many sins are forgiven her, because she has loved much!” (Lk. Chapter 7)
Can anyone possibly imagine a conversion so powerful! – a love so great! – that she would leave His sacred presence and go back out in the street to sin again? Not on your rinny-tin-tin!
This is the kind of love that is chaste, pure, undefiled, forgiven, restored, and brought to new life, reborn to a new walk with Christ that never turns back! May we all experience that same grace of conversion and never to cease to beg God for it.