I am happy that you have returned to the Church. Please do not confuse Catholicism, and what we believe, with the actions of some of its members, meaning a minority of priests and bishops. Their sins are not what our Church is about. Come back for the Eucharist, which you will not find body, blood, soul and divinity anywhere else. You are right to be disturbed by those priests, and Maskell was a monster, but they are not what we believe. I don’t know how long you have been away, but maybe you could look into sitting in on the next RCIA classes, some parishes allow that. Welcome home!