Will God forgive attempted suicide if that person has traumatic events in their past?

[centurionguard]

Six and half years of extremely poor resources of psychotherapy is nothing to speak about in my situation being a heterosexual male rape victim with a despised past from the depths of hell, despair, and unspeakable pain and stigma. I could say that I actually lost my soul and have been searching to find it for the last thirty years after being gang-raped at gunpoint by two men and a woman along with two other male heterosexual victims who suffered the same identical fate as I did thirty years ago. From August 25, 1979 until January 3rd, 2003;
I kept my horrifying stigmatized past silent telling (Nobody) to a point a burying it in my subconscious for twenty-three years until a major nervous breakdown on January 3rd, 2003. Recovery in these past six and a half years up to present date have been very slow.
In hindsight my inundated scourge from the past destroyed most of my life with a history of four unsuccessful suicide attempts in the last six and a half years. Remorse ? Yes.
Shame and Guilt ? That goes with the territory and stigma of unspeakable pain through these last three decades. I’ve yelled at God on more futile occasions than I wish to count. Some times I try to fathom why God “allows” so much rape trauma to happen to women, children, and men on this wretched planet in close vicinity to hell. My heart pains me more when I contemplate my four suicide attempts in the past. I’m not really sure if God will forgive me for what I’ve done. They say that God forgives in proportion to the amount of sorrow you feel in your heart. My heart aches in sorrow. One compassionate woman I spoke to said that maybe God allowed me to go through what I did to mortify and humble my soul. I guess that part of wisdom I do understand.

 

[Bennie_P]

Answer to the question will God forgive? With no doubt yes.

Why does God allow such horror as rape exist?

That might harder to understand if one is the victim. But my understanding is that God loves mankind so much that he will not force mankind to love him. He gave each of us a free will to either accept his love and/or to choose to love him, or reject it. In order to give one this freedom he had to give all the same freedom. Unfortunately some choose to commit evil on others.

You have the right to yell at God, I think God is big enough not to take offense in this case and he understands you pain and anger. With each tear you have shed in pain, God through his son has shed the same.

God, IMHO, wants you to be able to heal, to be able to find peace, not just in heaven with him, but here and now and that is the reason he allowed to attempt sucide four times, yet not allow you to die. There must be something very special in you, a message in which he has formed you to tell, and someone as special as you, much like our Christ had to suffer through in order to become that messanger.

There is evil in the world. And the innocent get hurt.

Put the shame, guilt and anger on the cross, for you have already been nailed to it.

I know this might not seem like a good answer, but apparently the healing as already began, it might, might, now be time to stop asking why? but what? What is it in your will God you want me to do now? Since you made me so special.

You touched my heart very, very deeply, thank you. :hug1:

You are in my prayers…

 

[manveersihota]

You touched my heart very, very deeply, thank you. :hug1:

You are in my prayers…

same here. i am going to ask you to do yourself a favour and open up your bible to the Book of Job. This book will certainly lift up your courage. God sometimes tests your faith in Him. Just stay steadfast and pray as much as you can to Him everyday. Satan loves torturing ppl and trying to steer them off track, just as he did to Jesus in the desert. but you must stay strong and fight his snares. no matter what happens. Jesus loves you no matter what. Read the Book of Job and u’ll find i great deal on insight.

God Bless.

U’ll be in my prayers.

 

[Trishie]

This sin against you by others who chose to act in this evil way is certainly not from God and not meant to mortify and humble you. Life gives enough troubles and humbling experiencies to one’s life without being subjected to gun-point multiple rape abuse. When others’ sin against us, there is nothing of God’s love in their sin, just their sin. Their sin is a rejection by them of God’s love and life. In sinning against you they have sinned against Jesus, against God, as Jesus tells us in Matthew 25 verses 40-46.

As your four suicide attempts were partly traceable to your ordeal and the effect it had on you, you don’t have full culpability for these sins against yourself and the gift of life. If you have confessed them in Confession I pray you will not dwell with guilt on these. What is forgiven and absolved is done, and you now owe to the precious gift of who you are to live in freedom.

I hope and pray that you will begin to find the healing you seek, and you not allow these people to help you to remain their victim. You are more than the rape. Your life is more than the rape, so I pray that You won’t allow their sin to triumph by remaining their victim. More than enough of your life has belonged to these people. They have no right to any part of your being. They have no right to your life, or to your mind, or to your freedom.

 

[Trishie]

Our God, You sent Your Son “into the world, not to condemn the world, but so that through Him the world might be saved. No one who believes in Him will be condemned.” [John 3:17-18] “Happy those whose crimes are forgiven, whose sins are blotted out; happy the man whom the Lord considers sinless.” [Psalm 31:1-2] For through Your Son, You have “cancelled every record of the debt that we had to pay; He has done away with it by nailing it to the cross.” [Colossians 2:14-15]
You assure us through Isaiah, our God,
“I have dispelled your faults like a cloud
your sins like a mist
Come back to me, for I have redeemed you.” [Isaiah 44:22]

Therefore, our God it is not presumptuous to ask that we may be healed of our faults and freed from our sin. Indeed, You have said:

“No need to recall the past,
no need to think about what was before.
See I am doing a new deed,
even now, it comes to light; can you not see it?
Yes, I am making a road in the wilderness,
paths in the wild.” [Isaiah 43:18-19]

I hope and pray that you will find a new part and new life.

God bless you. I’m sad that you’ve suffered so much.

 

[Highwayhound]

The simple answer is ‘yes’. God is love. If you or I approach God with a humble heart and ask forgiveness then as I understand matters God will forgive our sins.

A person could have no traumatic event before a suicide attempt and God forgiveness is there for the asking.

It is all about the cross. Accept what Jesus did and you will find peace. Afterall was there any less deserving victim of such a horrible death?

God bless

 

[Mystic_Warrior]

Six and half years of extremely poor resources of psychotherapy is nothing to speak about in my situation being a heterosexual male rape victim with a despised past from the depths of hell, despair, and unspeakable pain and stigma. I could say that I actually lost my soul and have been searching to find it for the last thirty years after being gang-raped at gunpoint by two men and a woman along with two other male heterosexual victims who suffered the same identical fate as I did thirty years ago. From August 25, 1979 until January 3rd, 2003;
I kept my horrifying stigmatized past silent telling (Nobody) to a point a burying it in my subconscious for twenty-three years until a major nervous breakdown on January 3rd, 2003. Recovery in these past six and a half years up to present date have been very slow.
In hindsight my inundated scourge from the past destroyed most of my life with a history of four unsuccessful suicide attempts in the last six and a half years. Remorse ? Yes.
Shame and Guilt ? That goes with the territory and stigma of unspeakable pain through these last three decades. I’ve yelled at God on more futile occasions than I wish to count. Some times I try to fathom why God “allows” so much rape trauma to happen to women, children, and men on this wretched planet in close vicinity to hell. My heart pains me more when I contemplate my four suicide attempts in the past. I’m not really sure if God will forgive me for what I’ve done. They say that God forgives in proportion to the amount of sorrow you feel in your heart. My heart aches in sorrow. One compassionate woman I spoke to said that maybe God allowed me to go through what I did to mortify and humble my soul. I guess that part of wisdom I do understand.

Sexual abuse is one of the most destructive acts on the human soul. I’ve seen it with many, many people. Your pain seems similar to what others have shared with me. It is only natural to be in pain and anger and wonder why God allows such things. I will not attempt to answer that. It depends and I don’t know the mind of God as well as I would like to. However, I do know that God forgives and is merciful.

God knows you better than anyone else. He knows your reasons, your heart and your mind. He understands better than anyone on earth. He is a merciful God. I pray that God will help you through your trials. I know from experience that suicide doesn’t solve anything. It doesn’t take the pain away. It doesn’t make it all better. It’s only one more obstacle to union with God.

Please consider a therapist and a spiritual director to help you through these issues.

Holy Father, please help centurianguard. Comfort him. Have mercy upon him. May his pain and sorrow bring him closer to you rather than farther away.

In the name of the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit. Amen.



God bless you,

MW