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LoveAndSparkles
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Feel everything I do is a sin and I’m having a hard time with masturbation. It’s my biggest sin and I can’t control it. I plan on getting my tubes tied and when I’m married will still have my husband use contraceptives. So because of this I’m damned to hell. So why should I follow the other rules in the church anyway now and how could god just throw me away because of that. I’ve disappointed him and all I think about is going to hell all the time. I want to be a good catholic and fully embrace god and keep a strong bond with him that I had growing up. I also dont want to be unhappy in life. I’m extremely unhappy trying to follow commandments and not sin but some sins seem so harmless and stupid to send someone to hell for. Especially someone like me that has always put god first while growing up. How can he just throw me in hell when all my life I’ve been dedicated to trying my best to follow him and do good in the world. I love him more than anything but now this catholic thing is making me overwhelmed thinking how god is never going to come through for me. He doesn’t want me to have things that I want and I don’t want much. I don’t want children and I feel that god is not letting men into my life because of this and it hurts a lot