Worried and Anxious over little things

[Average_Joe17]

For as long as I can remember, I feel as if every little thing I do, while practicing the Catholic faith, is a mistake. An example would be me redoing the sign of the cross if my fingers don’t touch a certain spot on my forehead, chest, and shoulders. I would often say Grace before eating but I would say it over again because I would feel as if I didn’t mean it when I said the prayer. I would restart prayers just because I would accuse myself of not “feeling it” or saying it with devotion.

In my everyday life, I feel that every thing I do is a sin. Every night, I would play the Chaplet of the Divine Mercy and pray along with it, if I don’t fall asleep.When I receive our Lord in the Blessed Sacrament, I would be in tears and tell our Lord, “Jesus you know that I love you but I am so sorry for receiving you in a unclean state.” There are somedays where I do feel at peace, but those days are rare.

What I really do what to be in the future is a priest. But I have doubtful thoughts that I’ll ever be a good priest.

Has anyone ever felt this way? And what can I do to get better?

 

[Canvas]

I suspect that you are suffering from scrupulosity.

I suffer from this as well, and it can take on many forms.

You should perhaps talk to a Priest in your Parish, and maybe also consider talking to a doctor, as this can be a sign of an anxiety disorder.

 

[Margaret_Ann]

Pm @edward_george1 or @InThePew. They’re priests and may be able to help you.

 

[Average_Joe17]

When I was 6th grade or 7th, I was diagnosed, by a psychologist, with anxiety. She was very kind and sweet while she was offering some tips and advice. I still suffer from anxiety as of today.

 

[Servant31]

Scrupulous Anonymous might be helpful? They deal with some of these types if things. Remember we are relying on Gods strength not necessarily ours. Jesus shows up even during imperfect prayers.

 

[1ke]

And what can I do to get better?

These are signs of anxiety and possibly OCD or related disorder.

First, talk to your physician about this, get a referral for evaluation.

Also make an appointment to talk to your priest as religious scruples are a form of OCD that need pastors care.