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Hello All. I would like to ask for prayers for myself. I am battling scrupulosity fairly seriously and am having difficulty getting through it. I have felt at times that I needed to be a priest, and, although its not what I want for myself I certainly am afraid to say NO to God. Sometimes I feel He is telling me this, although with the anxiety it is nearly impossible to tell what is my head vs His will (if I listened to what I thought He was telling me I would have converted to mormonism, baptist, and some random church I saw driving by lol :rolleyes:). Suffice it to say I dont trust whats going on in my head lol. Either way the scrupulosity it making it very difficult with the blaspemous thoughts to even pray myself. So I humbly ask for a few prayers that:
  1. God helps me find what I need to do
  2. Helps me get a healthy view of Him and how to life in our modern world through him
  3. Protects me as I grow and study so I dont fall away from Him.
Thanks all
 
Servant 31: You said: "Hello All. I would like to ask for prayers for myself. I am battling scrupulosity fairly seriously and am having difficulty getting through it. I have felt at times that I needed to be a priest, and, although its not what I want for myself I certainly am afraid to say NO to God. Sometimes I feel He is telling me this, although with the anxiety it is nearly impossible to tell what is my head vs His will (if I listened to what I thought He was telling me I would have converted to mormonism, baptist, and some random church I saw driving by lol ). Suffice it to say I dont trust whats going on in my head lol. Either way the scrupulosity it making it very difficult with the blaspemous thoughts to even pray myself. So I humbly ask for a few prayers that:
  1. God helps me find what I need to do
  2. Helps me get a healthy view of Him and how to life in our modern world through him
  3. Protects me as I grow and study so I dont fall away from Him."
My response: Dr. James Dobson of “Family Radio” recently had an especially good discussion of this, giving some very sobering anecdotes of people who thought they were following God’s will – but apparently were misled. One person thought God was leading him to marry this person and told her about it. She didn’t want to go against God so after a brief courtship they married – it was a disaster. Another person thought it was God’s will to become a missionary but that too turned out to be wrong. Dr. Dobson gave a couple more examples and concluded that people can be mistaken about God’s will. I would advise just follow your heart and see how it works out.
It also sounds like you are having what we psychologists call “obsessive thoughts.” They force themselves into your consciousness despite the fact that they do not reflect your true feelings. When I was a fundamental Christian I began having blasphemous thoughts against the Holy Spirit because I knew that blasphemy against the Holy Spirit was the unpardonable sin. These thoughts would come into my mind that the Holy Spirit was a (vulgar term). I spent many adolescent and early adult years worrying about it and wondering if God would still consider it the unpardonable sin if I didn’t mean it.
I have since seen others with a similar worry. It is devastating to think you might be damned to hell forever and ever because of a thought you didn’t mean!
When I got my Ph.D. in clinical psychology I read about “obsessive thoughts” and realized that’s what I was having. My heart goes out to you if you are suffering needlessly like I did! If you are in fact having these “blasphemous thoughts” be assured that God knows everything and knows your heart.
Well, I may have misinterpreted you comment about blasphemous thoughts and prayers.
Hope this helps!
P.S. Don’t expect God to explicitly tell you what to do – the days are gone when he comes to people in a dream or a burning bush. And don’t go opening your Bible and reading the first verse that catches your eye. Follow your heart!
 
***Hail Mary,
Full of Grace,
The Lord is with thee.
Blessed art thou among women,
and blessed is the fruit
of thy womb,
Jesus.
Holy Mary,
Mother of God,
pray for us sinners now,
and at the hour of death.

Amen***
 
Servant31 said:
Hello All. I would like to ask for prayers for myself. I am battling scrupulosity fairly seriously and am having difficulty getting through it. I have felt at times that I needed to be a priest, and, although its not what I want for myself I certainly am afraid to say NO to God. Sometimes I feel He is telling me this, although with the anxiety it is nearly impossible to tell what is my head vs His will (if I listened to what I thought He was telling me I would have converted to mormonism, baptist, and some random church I saw driving by lol :rolleyes:). Suffice it to say I dont trust whats going on in my head lol. Either way the scrupulosity it making it very difficult with the blaspemous thoughts to even pray myself. So I humbly ask for a few prayers that:
  1. God helps me find what I need to do
  2. Helps me get a healthy view of Him and how to life in our modern world through him
  3. Protects me as I grow and study so I dont fall away from Him.
Thanks all
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Praying for you.
 
:highprayer:Our Father who art in heaven, hallowed be thy name.
Thy kingdom come, thy will be done, on earth as it is in heaven.
Give us this day our daily bread and forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who trespass against us, and lead us not into temptation
but deliver us from evil. Amen :signofcross:
 
Mother Mary, please guide Servant31 and protect him. Help him to truly know and love our Lord and to live his life for our Lord alone. Protect him under your mantle of love and purity and help him to keep close to Jesus. May he be surrendered to our Lord’s holy Will and abandoned to His merciful Love. Amen.
 
dchezik said:
Servant 31: You said: "Hello All. I would like to ask for prayers for myself. I am battling scrupulosity fairly seriously and am having difficulty getting through it. I have felt at times that I needed to be a priest, and, although its not what I want for myself I certainly am afraid to say NO to God. Sometimes I feel He is telling me this, although with the anxiety it is nearly impossible to tell what is my head vs His will (if I listened to what I thought He was telling me I would have converted to mormonism, baptist, and some random church I saw driving by lol ). Suffice it to say I dont trust whats going on in my head lol. Either way the scrupulosity it making it very difficult with the blaspemous thoughts to even pray myself. So I humbly ask for a few prayers that:
  1. God helps me find what I need to do
  2. Helps me get a healthy view of Him and how to life in our modern world through him
  3. Protects me as I grow and study so I dont fall away from Him."
My response: Dr. James Dobson of “Family Radio” recently had an especially good discussion of this, giving some very sobering anecdotes of people who thought they were following God’s will – but apparently were misled. One person thought God was leading him to marry this person and told her about it. She didn’t want to go against God so after a brief courtship they married – it was a disaster. Another person thought it was God’s will to become a missionary but that too turned out to be wrong. Dr. Dobson gave a couple more examples and concluded that people can be mistaken about God’s will. I would advise just follow your heart and see how it works out.
It also sounds like you are having what we psychologists call “obsessive thoughts.” They force themselves into your consciousness despite the fact that they do not reflect your true feelings. When I was a fundamental Christian I began having blasphemous thoughts against the Holy Spirit because I knew that blasphemy against the Holy Spirit was the unpardonable sin. These thoughts would come into my mind that the Holy Spirit was a (vulgar term). I spent many adolescent and early adult years worrying about it and wondering if God would still consider it the unpardonable sin if I didn’t mean it.
I have since seen others with a similar worry. It is devastating to think you might be damned to hell forever and ever because of a thought you didn’t mean!
When I got my Ph.D. in clinical psychology I read about “obsessive thoughts” and realized that’s what I was having. My heart goes out to you if you are suffering needlessly like I did! If you are in fact having these “blasphemous thoughts” be assured that God knows everything and knows your heart.
Well, I may have misinterpreted you comment about blasphemous thoughts and prayers.
Hope this helps!
P.S. Don’t expect God to explicitly tell you what to do – the days are gone when he comes to people in a dream or a burning bush. And don’t go opening your Bible and reading the first verse that catches your eye. Follow your heart!
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Thanks for the well thought out and informed answer. Yes im definitely having obsessive thoughts, I have had bouts with OCD and this time it targeted religion so it does cause quite a bit of terror. Yes the blasphemous thoughts sound very familiar althought not exactly the same as what you experienced, sorry to hear you have had to learn about it as well. Bottom line is being a priest isnt what I personally want, but Im having a hard time discerning if its my head (my dad definitely wants/or at least wanted me to be a priest) or if its really someting Im suppossed to be doing. My undergrad is physics and Im studying for the MCAT (med school) atm. So with all this and the constant praying etc. it makes it difficult to believe hearing anything, let alone concentrate on studying. All in all though I do think GOd is in the mix somewhere because I was not in a good place when I started this journey over the past 6 months getting my life in order. But a few things happenned (my roomate situation exploded, and I lost a really bad fit for a job (not a real loss tbh)). In this mix great things came out of it, I got unemployment even thought I quit, I moved into my sisters vacant house so I can focus soley on studying for a few months, get back in shape, and hopefully tackle this OCD. I was also able to suspend unemployment until I return so I can look for ajob when I get back… So dependig on how you look at it God could be saying, be a priest, or “look mate Im handing you med school on a platter, get in the game” lol. So basically I am just trying to trust He will let me know in a way which I will understand.

At any rate thanks everyone so much for the prayers, they never go wasted.
 
***Hail Mary,
Full of Grace,
The Lord is with thee.
Blessed art thou among women,
and blessed is the fruit
of thy womb,
Jesus.
Holy Mary,
Mother of God,
pray for us sinners now,
and at the hour of death.

Amen***

:crossrc:
 
Hello my name is Colby,

I’m currently going through a hard time, I’m working of town for the next 2-3 weeks and I’ve lost my keys :confused: while at work. Please can you pray for me and that I find my keys?
I go home tomorrow and if I don’t find them, I won’t be able to get into my apt. 😦

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Servant 31, when it comes to discerning a vocation, or envisioning God’s will for us, perhaps the Holy Spirit will help you…

Prayer for the Help of the Holy Spirit

O God, send forth Your Holy Spirit into Servant 31’s heart that he may perceive, into his mind that he may remember, and into his soul that he may meditate. Inspire him to speak with piety, holiness, tenderness and mercy. Teach, guide and direct his thoughts and senses from beginning to end. May Your grace ever help and correct him, and may he be strengthened now with wisdom from on high, for the sake of Your infinite mercy. Amen.

(Saint Anthony of Padua)

:signofcross:

Now, I’m not that great on advice, but going to med school and living a life of highest virtue need not mutually exclude each other. Maybe if you go to school first, that would be 4 years (not counting any residency), that you would have to fully examine whether a religious vocation is right for you. I may be biased (I tried applying to med school) but you’re young, you have the time and brain power now to learn a difficult profession. I also would try praying to St. Giuseppi Moscati to intercede with the Holy Spirit for you. GM was an Italian doctor who lived with nothing but charity and love for his neighbors. Check him out:

moscati.it/En_GM_index.html#Preghiera

God bless you.
 
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