I will open myself up to attacks, but allow me to say a few words.
I had two abortions in my youth. I, like Norma, found myself deeply remorseful, and have spent years punishing myself. It was through the process of RCIA that I have begun to resolve these issues.
Now, let me tell you how God humbles you. Last year, I lost our first son, fourth child…he was born still at 19 weeks.
We thought we could sink no lower.
Then, we discovered that our ‘rainbow’ baby, due just a year after his brother, was anencephalic. Our 20 week sonogram went horribly wrong. It wasn’t supposed to happen again, but here we were.
We chose for an amnio to be done, because no matter when the baby was to be born, we didn’t want an autopsy on our little one…we didn’t want our children marred by the process.
The dr. drew back the needle and up rose the reddest amniotic fluid I have seen in all my years of child bearing. The dr’s.face fell, and he, a Catholic, began the discussion with us.
I could tell you, and would like to tell you, of the hell on earth we experienced. We were given a very grim prognosis. We left the drs…crushed , and went straight to church, where we discussed our options, if there were any. We were advised medically to induce labor. I abhorr the ignorant comment that we had an abortion. I know what an abortion is…this was NOT one. Our priest and deacon stood and continue to stand beside us in this decision.
You may choose to sit in judgment of us and other parents who made the decision we had to make. I am in RCIA, and to be honest, if some of you were standing in front of the Church, I would never set foot in it. You are not trying to understand what we’ve been through.
Walk the walk and talk the talk. I go to the weekly rosary for life at the local clinic. Those women, who remind me of me all those years ago, are making ill informed decisions for children they do not want.
A mother lying in a hospital room wishing she could die instead of her child does not need your judgments.
I pray that you will try to change minds using kindness and mercy instead of snotty, holier than thou statistics and quotes that aren’t rooted in humanity.
This is the human face of the pain associated with anencephaly.
Peace be with you all.
A mourning mother and a sinner saved by His Grace.
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