a realization

[miam]

The wonderful morning welcomed joyfully awhile back as I woke up. I realized that this day is another day God gives me to enjoy with and live my life with. Suddenly, I was struck by this question - “What would be the driving force of my life today and days onwards?”
I kept on thinking; however I can’t find the answer. I remembered my High School years when I spent my life of simply studying and discussing things with the youth during seminars. The spirit of youth ministry gave me LIFE or rather it was my life. I found it as my stairway to Heaven; that through it soon I’ll be able to face Jesus smiling at me. Everything was good despite the many hindrances my family and my schedule kept on conferring me. Now that I am in college, I can say that I’m really faced by the real world and its works. It is inviting too much. I have no more enough time for the ministry and eventually its spirit begins to fade(but it’s not yet lost of course). I’m now again in the verge of search of what would drive my present.
I usually feel that INSATIABLE THIRST of man. When I finally find things that somehow would complete me, they eventually begin to wither. I don’t know if that were wrong that I attach myself deeply to those things- ambitions, relationships etc.
It also came to the point that everyday of my life, I dreamed of nunnery. I dreamed of it because I sought consolation and happiness of that thought. I really love to become one of those sisters someday because I love their act of charity and I also want to make other people happy but it seems it would take several years more before it would be realized. I’m just 17 years old and I also have my responsibility to my family to fulfill after I graduate and eventually would have my own work. I also dreamed of raising my own family someday but it’s just the same, it would take several years more before the realization. I just end up dreaming of Heaven for there I know I shall be satisfied but again I guess it would take long time before I shall reach its gates- I must fulfill my mission here on earth first so that I would have the confidence to look upon Jesus in that day.
Haaaaay…
Trully, LIFE IS A CONTINUOUS STRUGGLE- a struggle for search for happiness, satisfaction and JOY.
Only to God my heart and my soul would find its rest.

(I just shared my realizations for today.)

 

[roveau]

Good on you Miam and thank you for sharing your wonderful thoughts and hopes with us. Being so young you have many options for your future. Be sure to ask Our Lord and Our Lady to guide you in the big decisions of your life. God Bless you!

Kind Regards,

Rove

 

[Monica4316]

One day I had a similar realization, and this thought: “this day is a GIFT from the Lord”. It only comes once…so what will I use it for?

I think that we try to fill our lives with a lot of things but only God can truly fill that ‘place’ in our hearts.

and then of course we have to find a way to serve God…a way that is His will. I believe that if we simply do His will, out of love, that would please Him

it’s sort of funny, I’m also in college and I’m also drawn to both the convent and marriage. I think marriage is something most people are naturally drawn towards… but either of them can become a supernatural calling from God. a way to holiness. It’s sort of difficult to discern though, but what I decided to do is just be open to God’s will more.

thanks for sharing your realization

I agree that only in Heaven would our hearts be finally TRULY at rest…we come closer to this on earth though, as we get closer to God.

God bless

 

[poetryforjesus]

I’m in a different state of life but also have that hunger for a closer communion with God and a more God-centered life. Sometimes I get very excited at the prospect of seeing God’s will for me and stepping out on faith to fulfill it. Other times I get reminded that the dreams I have, however holy they might be, may never come to realization. I could die today. It’s true we will never be completely happy until we see the Lord face to face in heaven, but I do think He wants us to live fully in the present moment and to trust completely in His providence. To simply adore Christ and all His works puts our heart at peace and joy. Our restlessness will subside.

This question has helped me: if I see Christ right now in all His glory, what will I do? My answer goes something like this: I will fall down in trembling adoration; I will behold all His beauty and be in ecstasy.

All of life is meant to prepare us for living in heaven with Christ. I have learned that I must use the present moment fully to prepare myself for going to heaven. Therefore contemplation of God at all times is what I strive for.