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Saoirse
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I am a Catholic Neophyte; I was Baptized, Confirmed, and recieved First Eucharist on April 7, 2007. I am nineteen years old and will be studying Catholic Studies and History next year at university, in order to set myself in motion upon the path to being a teacher in a Catholic Highschool (if we still have Catholic Highschools in Canada, even ones only Catholic in name, in four or five years from now…).
When I recieved First Eucharist on Saturday - either I was imagining things or Jesus told me He would bind me even more tightly to Him, and that this would happen soon - requiring patience from me and an understanding that all times are soon to the Lord - as well as a careful preperation to become more fully His.
My first thought was of pure joy - I have often said in my prayers that Jesus gets first say and if He wants me, I will be His. However, as I was watching this one little girl throughout the Vigil MASS, I also realized how desperately I desire to have children of my own, to love and raise and teach. I feel sure that Jesus has children He intends for me to mother to in some way, or the desire to be a mother would not be so intense - and intensified with every time I set eyes on a small child - but I am not sure what this means for my discernment of a vocation to religious life, for which I have an equal if not greater desire.
What should I do with these somewhat conflicting desires? How do I discern God’s will for my life with all this new information? I feel almost certain that I will be a religious sister - but I also feel almost certain, at times, that I will be a mother with many children to love and guide.
in love and faith,
Saoirse
When I recieved First Eucharist on Saturday - either I was imagining things or Jesus told me He would bind me even more tightly to Him, and that this would happen soon - requiring patience from me and an understanding that all times are soon to the Lord - as well as a careful preperation to become more fully His.
My first thought was of pure joy - I have often said in my prayers that Jesus gets first say and if He wants me, I will be His. However, as I was watching this one little girl throughout the Vigil MASS, I also realized how desperately I desire to have children of my own, to love and raise and teach. I feel sure that Jesus has children He intends for me to mother to in some way, or the desire to be a mother would not be so intense - and intensified with every time I set eyes on a small child - but I am not sure what this means for my discernment of a vocation to religious life, for which I have an equal if not greater desire.
What should I do with these somewhat conflicting desires? How do I discern God’s will for my life with all this new information? I feel almost certain that I will be a religious sister - but I also feel almost certain, at times, that I will be a mother with many children to love and guide.
in love and faith,
Saoirse
