Uh oh, it seems we have some dissension in the ranks between you two. I was worried I’d get people on both sides, and that that would make it harder for me to make a final decision.
If the bottom line is none of my sins are forgiven if I don’t confess to a mortal sin (whether it’s one or many), or I confess but know I will commit it again, not out of habit or attachment, but in this case, out of necessity for using the programs for my art, then I’d NEVER be in a state of grace, assuming I lied to the priest (sin of omission) or was not truly repentant (confessed and was sorry, but knew I’d use the programs again).
My whole thing was whether I can go to confession to confess the venial stuff as well as the mortal, and at least get the venial sins absolved and that it would somehow be enough to receive communion worthily, but thinking about it, I don’t believe it does when the aftermath of a mortal sin lingers. If confession is truly absolute as the catechism says, then there’s no loophole or room for argument and I cannot pretend to pick and choose what I want to believe.
On the other hand however, there’s what the law says and there’s how God will actually deal with you personally. I believe God deals with each of us on a case by case basis, knowing full well what the priest does not and cannot. For me, I’m not trying to do something illegal, I don’t revel in it being illegal, I don’t con anyone with the programs, and while I take commissions here or there for projects that might be done in these programs, I don’t make any profits using them except for those.
I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t still conflicted (especially when so much is on the line for me), but I believe the right thing to do is confess this and see what the priest says. If he says I can keep them, use them, be absolved and therefore be in a state of grace, then that’s that. If he says I cannot or that I shouldn’t, and that he cannot absolve me as long as I have the programs, or that he will only do so if I promise to delete them, that that’s that also.
Whatever the case is, I want to be in a state of grace over anything else and to be able to worthily receive our Lord in Holy Communion with a clear conscience, not how I am now.
Thanks again, everyone for responding. I appreciate it.
