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Please pray for me and my family - I am so unbelievably freaked out I may be pregnant, again!!! DS #3 just turned 6 months and I started bleeding. Dumb me thinking I was starting my cycle told DH that we had the green light. Went forward with it and JUST NOW went back to my Postpartum book to double check. NOPE!!! Breakthrough bleeding (anything NOT preceeded by a thermal shift) NOT SAFE!!! Which is exactly what we did.
I have been saying for the past few months that I am absolutely done (for now). Within the last month I’ve had at least 2 people ask if I was pregnant again. The biggest thing that bugs me is DH and I have been abstaining since DS was born and we finally broke down in weakness and ‘cheated’ (i.e. manual stimulation to climax without consummation). I went to confession, but I feel like God is getting ready to pay me back.
I am so scared and ticked at myself. DH is absolutely opposed to NFP but he has said that he’s willing to go along with it - which just means he’s trusting ME to keep us on the up-and-up and NOT pregnant. I know that he SHOULD take a part in reviewing my chart or double-checking the literature, but I know my place here and that this is my job to prove to him TO GET him on board. If I fail here, who knows what will happen.
I just can’t take anymore right now and I just feel like I blew it. I’ve been praying to God to bring DH back to the faith, but NFP is definitely a big obstacle for him - another baby right now would only delay his return. I’ve also been praying for God to send us help in terms of a young person we can pay to help me with the housework and good holy relationships for me and DH (we really do not have any friends to speak of who are married with children our kids’ age). Just afraid that maybe God thinks we can handle 3 just fine on our own and in order to answer the aforementioned prayers, He has to send us another child to justify the need.
I know, I’m being neurotic. Probably be taking pregnancy tests over the next couple of weeks. Just totally freaked out. We’ve had some major medical expenses in the past few months and we owe more than we have in savings. I know God always provides, but I am physically, mentally, spiritually and emotionally exhausted. God, please spare us. I’m too scared to even tell DH that I screwed up. Will probably wait till I get some pregnancy tests under my belt.
I have been saying for the past few months that I am absolutely done (for now). Within the last month I’ve had at least 2 people ask if I was pregnant again. The biggest thing that bugs me is DH and I have been abstaining since DS was born and we finally broke down in weakness and ‘cheated’ (i.e. manual stimulation to climax without consummation). I went to confession, but I feel like God is getting ready to pay me back.
I am so scared and ticked at myself. DH is absolutely opposed to NFP but he has said that he’s willing to go along with it - which just means he’s trusting ME to keep us on the up-and-up and NOT pregnant. I know that he SHOULD take a part in reviewing my chart or double-checking the literature, but I know my place here and that this is my job to prove to him TO GET him on board. If I fail here, who knows what will happen.
I just can’t take anymore right now and I just feel like I blew it. I’ve been praying to God to bring DH back to the faith, but NFP is definitely a big obstacle for him - another baby right now would only delay his return. I’ve also been praying for God to send us help in terms of a young person we can pay to help me with the housework and good holy relationships for me and DH (we really do not have any friends to speak of who are married with children our kids’ age). Just afraid that maybe God thinks we can handle 3 just fine on our own and in order to answer the aforementioned prayers, He has to send us another child to justify the need.
I know, I’m being neurotic. Probably be taking pregnancy tests over the next couple of weeks. Just totally freaked out. We’ve had some major medical expenses in the past few months and we owe more than we have in savings. I know God always provides, but I am physically, mentally, spiritually and emotionally exhausted. God, please spare us. I’m too scared to even tell DH that I screwed up. Will probably wait till I get some pregnancy tests under my belt.