We can’t tell you what he meant.
I wanted to encourage you to offer up all your struggles, in union with Christ on the cross, for the conversion of sinners, with a morning offering every day. Maybe you’re doing this already. It seems like your struggles could really be an impact for good in this world. I know a few people who somehow get up every day and tackle a very difficult situation. Day in and day out. I don’t know how they do it. Grab onto Jesus’ hand in the morning and ask him to walk with you through the day. Then on Sunday at mass, bring your whole week to him, with all it’s bumps and bruises. This is our offering with him. May you impact the world with Christ, who takes a few fish and loaves and feeds the 5 thousand. God bless you.