Hi ethereality,
I’m sorry you never answered my post no. 18.
Fran,
I do appreciate your posts; they have been among the best. Generally, when I am silent on a post, it is because I agree with it. I tend to post disagreements to try to flesh out and resolve a problem or answer an underlying question.
My problem is that I don’t know how to put your advice into practice. For example, “looking within”, I find only my own thoughts. Trying to “listen for God to speak to me,” I get only silence or I fall asleep. Reading the Bible, it is just another document for me to study (God has not directly answered my questions or solved my problems through it), even when I pray before hand asking the Holy Spirit to make His will known to me and to give me the grace to obey, as Fr. Larry Richards has instructed us on one of his
Reason for Our Hope Foundation speeches on EWTN Radio.
So on one hand, your posts comfort me, but on the other hand, I don’t know what to do with them. Of course I pray (in thanksgiving and for others, not only petitions for myself), but I don’t know how much that’s helping.
read again 1 Corinthians 1:18 and just keep going to about the middle of chapter 3. Absorb what it means.
I’m trying, but I encounter roadblocks, like
2:4-5:
my preaching, my message depended on no persuasive language, devised by human wisdom, but rather on the proof I gave you of spiritual power; 5 God’s power, not man’s wisdom, was to be the foundation of your faith.
I have not been given this proof that St. Paul gave them: I have not seen any of his miracles, and what we find about him in the Bible carries that same 2,000-year historical uncertainty.
I also have a problem with this “taking joy in paradox”: How is it fair for God to expect us to value what we must not value if we are to survive as a species? (Likewise, how is it fair for God to expect us to disregard our senses and declare by faith alone that the Eucharist is Jesus?)
1 Corinthians 2:6b:
it is not the wisdom of this world, or of this world’s rulers, whose power is to be abrogated.
That’s fine poetry, but the problem is God is the designer and invoker of this world’s wisdom, by holding natural disasters in being, designing evolution, etc.: God is the one who
requires us to value the strong and avoid suffering whenever possible, lest our children die of hunger or climate. So St. Paul apparently doesn’t see how he’s declaring that God is contradicting Himself here – but perhaps I’m misunderstanding the text, which just goes back to my earlier point about the apparent futility of me trying to read the Bible as a means of listening to God. Perhaps St. Paul:
1 Corinthians 2:14:
Mere man with his natural gifts cannot take in the thoughts of God’s Spirit; they seem mere folly to him, and he cannot grasp them, because they demand a scrutiny which is spiritual.
So it seems all I can do is pray for God’s grace. Yet St. Paul contradicts this idea at the end of verse 16,
After all, I have been both Baptized and Confirmed, and, having Confessed just two days ago, I am conscious of no mortal sin.
I understand what you’re going through because I’ve been there and am happy I made it through. I mean, what’s it all about ethereality?
Regards
Fran

Thanks, and I’m glad you made it through. I’m not sure I understand your question here, though.
Take a look at B-Theory of time which fits with the classic teaching of the Church fathers on causality. In the B-Theory all moments of time are equally real. Temporal becoming is an illusion of human consciousness (time is tenseless and the flow of time is an illusion).
Do you have a free reading recommendation? To be honest, it sounds absurd at face value: If all moments are equally real, i.e. if that means they don’t cease to exist as the present becomes the past (as St. Augustine asserted in his
Confessions), then it implies there are an enormous number of Me’s (so to speak). It then seems to imply that, at the end of time, they will all still exist, and God will perhaps throw some of them into hell (during those times I was committing a grave sin), and others of me going into heaven, and yet that would be solely a function of when Jesus decided to return, which would then be arbitrary with respect to the collection of Me’s. So by this proof by contradiction (reduction to absurdity) B-theory of time is certainly false, if God is not capricious, unless I’ve misunderstood what you mean, hence my request for a reading recommendation (and a free one, since I cannot afford to buy anything).
Looking at what you wrote again, I see now another interpretation would be to think of myself the same way I think of God, i.e. timeless (“time is tenseless and time-flow an illusion”): But if the flow of time is an illusion, then our incompetency is absurd, and God absurd for his crown of creation (man) being thus so,
and God is placed in the same ridiculous category – of Deceiver – as the Creationists’ claim that the earth is 6,000 years old and God allowed Satan to put down dinosaur bones “to trick us into thinking otherwise”.