1ke nailed it. We here cannot judge others.
It seems that the Holy Spirit is moving you in the right direction and that you are cooperating with the Holy Spirit. Continue to pray for WISDOM and UNDERSTANDING and an INCREASE IN FAITH.
I see the word “convert” as coming from “converge.” That is, coming closer to God, eventually converging with Him in Heaven for all eternity.
Because I realize that God does love me and I, in return, want to Love God, I automatically want to be as close to Him as I can be in the Life.
We humans cannot reach God on our own. God must first approach us and THEN we can choose to respond, or not, to one degree or another. The Bible tells us how God reached out to us and how various people responded.
We accept Jesus Christ as the Living Son of God. Christ does not lie. In short form, Christ said in the Gospels:
- Thou art Peter and upon THIS rock I will build MY church.
- THIS IS MY BODY. THIS IS MY BLOOD. DO THIS in rememberance of Me.
- Whose sins you shall forgive, they are forgiven. Whose sins you shall retain, they are retained.
The Sacraments of Confession and Holy Eucharist were established by Christ. We may not fully understand it all, but if we accept Christ as the Living Son of God, then we must accept these two Sacraments and the Church Christ Himself established.
If we are trying to converge with God and avoid eternal Hell, we do ourselves a great service by taking an honest close look at the Catholic Church. The Sacraments and teachings of the Catholic CHurch provide the FULLNESS OF CHRIST no other church, Christian or not, can.
Continue to pray for WISDOM and UNDERSTANDING and an INCREASE IN FAITH.