Well, if the certain don’t agree, then that suggests there
is cause for confusion.
I understand what you mean, but in practical terms, how much impact is this having on your actual day-to-day service of God? Are you in some moral dilemma, and don’t know where to turn?
Find a good and holy spiritual director and confessor about it.
As to the intellectual side, be aware that you are trying, as I believe St. Augustine put it,
to put the ocean into a bucket. God is a topic that is far beyond us.
I like this.
The topic of what we are to do or not to do, what basic beliefs we are to have…these aren’t that complicated. The problem is that the application requires not only intellectual understanding, but also prayer, discernment, and continual guidance.
You won’t find monasteries sending postulants off to be hermits. There is a reason for that. **!!!**The final judgement won’t be looking back on how you did on your paper exams. It’s the practical stuff that separates the sheep and the goats. That’s what the catechisms are for. All of Scriptures give the edge to the simple over the wise.
Again, a spiritual director will help you keep your eye on the real prize. That is where the simple have the advantage.
Also,
be aware that the evil one can put on the parade dress of an angel of light. If **Satan can use your study of the faith to make you superior, difficult, uncharitable, or even neglectful of your duties to pray and do good works, **he’ll happily let you memorize all of Aquinas,
[the problem here is that he has no power over us unless we give it to him] if you’re up for it. That isn’t the normal course of things when one becomes enamored of topics theological, but it is a real peril. Go back and read St. Paul and the Gospels on a regular basis. If you aren’t doing that stuff in its most basic meaning, shut the books for awhile, and get with it. You’ll come back, but it will be with new eyes.