Am I under demonic attack?

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Recently i have been experiencing in a fall out in my spiritual life,
I am very deep in self destructive acts, especially excessive masturbation, alcohol abuse and sex and i feel helpless and can’t stop.
Persistent suicidal ideations,
Feeling so hopeless , in constant despair, wanting to be alone all the time,
And decreased devotion to prayers,

Could this point to demonic opression or influence? And how do i deal with it? I wanna pray so hard, but soon as i finish, i would masturbate and watch porn or vice versa.
Please pray for me and help me.
 
From what you have said, I believe you suffer from addiction, vices (bad habits).

Excellent remedy: DAILY MASS, DAILY confession (spiritual direction), DAILY receiving of the Eucharist. PLUS, install K9 web filtering (it’s free) on your smartphone and computer (and have a devoted Catholic person to (name removed by moderator)ut the password that only he/she would know).

NO excuses. Now get up and move. How do you expect a change in your life if you don’t go to the trouble of at least going to daily Mass and participate in the sacraments?
 
Thank you for your idea but my working schedule cannot allow that, its a challenge,
I had done that before during my long vacation, but after a month or two i get a relapse, and its even more uncomfortable confessing the same things every week and falling again
 
You could still install a filter on your computer & phone. You could pray the Rosary every day, and read scripture. All of these can help. But I also strongly suggest professional counseling for the suicidal thoughts.
 
fredmack2 said:
Thank you for your idea but my working schedule cannot allow that, its a challenge,
I had done that before during my long vacation, but after a month or two i get a relapse, and its even more uncomfortable confessing the same things every week and falling again
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Keep going to confession and receive the Eucharist as much as possible (when in a state of grace). This will strengthen you. Keep praying every day and try to focus less on yourself and your weakness and more on Jesus and his strength and goodness.

He died to set you free from slavery, and right now you are a slave to your passions. You can’t stop on your own, but cooperate with Jesus and allow him to work within you. You didn’t become addicted to this overnight, it will take time and effort to overcome.

The first trap satan hits you with is the actual sin. The second trap is he tells you that you are no good, and worthless because of the sin. Don’t believe him, he is a liar. You are a child of God, confess your sin and strengthen yourself with the sacraments and prayer, and continue to fight.
 
you are more likely suffering from concupiscence and being a human than demonic attack. which i guess is pretty good news. your actions, as you know are seriously bad news bears. go to confession ASAP and talk to a priest. he very likely knows a good catholic therapist that you could talk to. please seek help if you are having suicidal ideation. I prayed for you a bit, so there should be some good stuff incoming, but you need to cooperate with gods grace and do some leg work.
 
fredmack2 said:
Thank you for your idea but my working schedule cannot allow that, its a challenge,
I had done that before during my long vacation, but after a month or two i get a relapse, and its even more uncomfortable confessing the same things every week and falling again
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When you are at the confessional, ask the priest if he can be your spiritual director and help you with this addiction.

Daily Mass are usually offered early in the morning before working hours, have you checked that?

Could you at least install the K9 software? You need to close the door with a lock. I worry because this is very very serious. I don’t want to know that I fellow Catholic who was seeking for help got condemned because death came while he was in mortal sin. It is scary.

And please brush off those suicidal thoughts. If you truly wish to be in heaven, to be in eternal happiness, you should not think of suicide. Before all, you are a son, I repeat, a son of God. Your purpose in this life is to fight to be holy every day until it is time to go back home : Heaven. You should not end the life of which Christ has died for. Remember that when he was in agony in mount Gethsemane, he saw the future, the sins every single one would commit, including you and me. And so, he died for our salvation.

Another thing to keep in mind is that you should see with the eyes of Christ and see souls! You are surrounded by pure souls and souls with body. Next time you see someone, see their soul. Be aware that around you are pure spirits (angels and demons) and there is a constant battle that you cannot see. You, are to be a soldier and fight to do good. You are not alone in this world, you were born for combat. Pope Leo XIII says " Christians are, moreover, born for combat, whereof the greater the vehemence, the more assured, God aiding, the triumph: “Have confidence; I have overcome the world.” (John 16:33)"
 
fredmack2 said:
Recently i have been experiencing in a fall out in my spiritual life,
I am very deep in self destructive acts, especially excessive masturbation, alcohol abuse and sex and i feel helpless and can’t stop.
Persistent suicidal ideations,
Feeling so hopeless , in constant despair, wanting to be alone all the time,
And decreased devotion to prayers,

Could this point to demonic opression or influence? And how do i deal with it? I wanna pray so hard, but soon as i finish, i would masturbate and watch porn or vice versa.
Please pray for me and help me.
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You have become a slave to sin and are experiencing its serious consequences. Your gravely sinful actions alone can be the reason why you are suicidal, etc… When we mortally sin we cut ourselves off from grace and from God, and from a peaceful and blessed life; our remaining obstinate in mortal sin can produce in every soul the effects that you are experiencing. The devil does not have to tempt you if you keep tempting yourself to mortal sin by remaining in near occasions of committing mortal sins, by your not praying ceaselessly for purity and the graces you need, for your not practicing mortification and self-control enough, for your not fearing to offend God at all times, etc… Your flesh and the world can tempt you and oppress you without Satan having any active role in tempting you or oppressing you; he doesn’t even have to tempt you or oppress you, so long as you keep yourself chained by the excessive passions and appetites that keep you a slave to sin. Please seek the help of a traditional priest and make a general confession with him. God bless you.
 
fredmack2 said:
Recently i have been experiencing in a fall out in my spiritual life,
I am very deep in self destructive acts, especially excessive masturbation, alcohol abuse and sex and i feel helpless and can’t stop.
Persistent suicidal ideations,
Feeling so hopeless , in constant despair, wanting to be alone all the time,
And decreased devotion to prayers,

Could this point to demonic opression or influence? And how do i deal with it? I wanna pray so hard, but soon as i finish, i would masturbate and watch porn or vice versa.
Please pray for me and help me.
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As someone who has been in a deep pit their self, and also came very close to committing suicide, I can say that if you truly believe in God, pray to him, and pray to St. Dymphna, and your prayers will be answered, but from experience, you must truly feel guilt for your acts to be healed.
Also, get yourself a Bible, and read it. During my times of struggle, a voice said to me that the Bible was the most important tool I had. This realization hit my life a bullet. I know what you’re thinking “How will reading the Bible help me?”. If you really read it and devote time to understanding it, it will. Don’t underestimate the power of the word.
 
When you are tempted to sin agains purity pray to our Blessed Mother and to Saint Jerome. You need to keep busy! When St. Jerome was tempted he would study Hebrew, but maybe Latin would be more practical for you (learning Latin is just a suggestion). You are in our prayers.

May God Bless you
 
Brother, there’s something everyone posting here is forgetting. They (correct me if I’m wrong after a bunch I started to read quickly) are all saying it’s your sins, it’s your fault, you need to do more…etc!! Now I agree there are lots of things you can do, but if you fall prey to temptation no K-9, German Shepard, computer geek or otherwise is going to help. You and God, and Prayer, those are the three things that will not fail. Otherwise, where there’s a will there’s a way, not where there’s a way there’s a will…

Are you under demonic attack? Wow, you make it sound so Hollywood. Yet to answer your question, absolutely, yes, without a doubt. The thing everyone’s forgetting is that most of our most treasured Saints have been under attack by Satan or his demons. Christ our Lord was under attack from the Devil himself. Remember it’s called temptation for a reason. Because it’s tempting. If not it would be called “The three times Jesus slapped Lucifer around, spit in his face and then was attended to by Angels.”

However, do not think this gives you a free pass by opening yourself up to temptation you might as well step into the ring with Lucifer and not ask for Gods help until round three.

Lustful, anxiety causing, Angry, murderous, evil demons are all around and tempt us with every chance they get.
 
Despair is not of God but is the contrary vice of the theological virtue of hope.

The feeling of guilt is God working in you. Again and again I have read that the closer we are to God the more acutely we feel our sinfulness.

You are not being attacked, you are coming to terms with your sinfulness, which EVERYBODY has, if not in one form then in another.

Do not be ashamed and think that your sins are worse than mine or someone else’s, all sins are the same in the eyes of God.

In was not without reason that Paul counseled us to “work out your salvation with fear and trembling.”

Yes, it is a terrible feeling to be a slave to the passions, but we are counseled to turn even this weakness into a strength by confession and humility.

As far as confessing your failure again and again, nothing could be more healthy or helpful.

Coming to terms with our weakness is the beginning of our healing,

You are on the right path and must not despair.
 
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You have become a slave to sin and are experiencing its serious consequences. Your gravely sinful actions alone can be the reason why you are suicidal, etc… When we mortally sin we cut ourselves off from grace and from God, and from a peaceful and blessed life; our remaining obstinate in mortal sin can produce in every soul the effects that you are experiencing.
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Everyone keeps accusing the OP of mortal sin? It is very evident that he no longer gives the full consent of his will when he falls into these sins of impurity. His culpability is greatly diminished. This needs to be taken into account for a number of reasons: 1.) as to not scare him out of his wits, thinking that hell is around the corner at every second even though he is trying to amend his sinful ways and 2.) because if he is not culpable for these sins (even though they are of grave nature), he should not refrain from receiving the Eucharist, which is the ultimate source of grace through which our Lord will break him from the bondage of sin.
 
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Everyone keeps accusing the OP of mortal sin? It is very evident that he no longer gives the full consent of his will when he falls into these sins of impurity. His culpability is greatly diminished. This needs to be taken into account for a number of reasons: 1.) as to not scare him out of his wits, thinking that hell is around the corner at every second even though he is trying to amend his sinful ways and 2.) because if he is not culpable for these sins (even though they are of grave nature), he should not refrain from receiving the Eucharist, which is the ultimate source of grace through which our Lord will break him from the bondage of sin.
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If his conscience has become dulled and his will very weakened from repeating the same sins of impurity over and over again, and he is deliberately not keeping himself away from near occasions of sin (if he keeps his computer or his accessibility to the harmful websites); if he is choosing not to pray a great deal for the grace of purity and for the other graces he needs; if he is deliberately neglecting to practice some mortification; if he is not seeking assistance from a professional (a valid priest and/or doctor)-- if he is not seeking these necessary helps for his recovery from his “compulsion” or “addiction,” then he is culpable in confession. Before his conscience was dulled and his will very weakened he was culpable for his sins of impurity; after his conscience got dulled and he developed a compulsion/addiction he is culpable, so long as he is not seeking professional help. The Church teaches this. We can’t say that a person is not culpable before God in confession just because he has lost his conscience and strength of will, for then you’d have to say that compulsive liars are not culpable for their repeated sins of lying before God. If a compulsive liar before going to confession seeks ongoing help from a doctor and/or priest to stop lying, prays for the graces that he needs to break from his compulsion, keeps from near occasions of sin, etc., then his culpability in confession can be diminished. The original poster made no mention of his seeking professional help from a doctor or priest. If he is seeking help from a professional and avoiding all unnecessary near occasions of the sin of impurity, then yes, his culpability from his compulsion may be diminished. But the original poster still has his computer and is not keeping himself free of the problem websites – he will have to get rid of his computer or do something about those websites, if he wants his culpability to be diminished – if he wants to avoid the near occasion of committing a mortal sin, which is required of him. God bless you.
 
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If his conscience has become dulled and his will very weakened from repeating the same sins of impurity over and over again, and he is deliberately not keeping himself away from near occasions of sin (if he keeps his computer or his accessibility to the harmful websites); if he is choosing not to pray a great deal for the grace of purity and for the other graces he needs; if he is deliberately neglecting to practice some mortification; if he is not seeking assistance from a professional (a valid priest and/or doctor)-- if he is not seeking these necessary helps for his recovery from his “compulsion” or “addiction,” then he is culpable in confession. Before his conscience was dulled and his will very weakened he was culpable for his sins of impurity; after his conscience got dulled and he developed a compulsion/addiction he is culpable, so long as he is not seeking professional help. The Church teaches this. We can’t say that a person is not culpable before God in confession just because he has lost his conscience and strength of will, for then you’d have to say that compulsive liars are not culpable for their repeated sins of lying before God. If a compulsive liar before going to confession seeks ongoing help from a doctor and/or priest to stop lying, prays for the graces that he needs to break from his compulsion, keeps from near occasions of sin, etc., then his culpability in confession can be diminished. The original poster made no mention of his seeking professional help from a doctor or priest. If he is seeking help from a professional and avoiding all unnecessary near occasions of the sin of impurity, then yes, his culpability from his compulsion may be diminished. But the original poster still has his computer and is not keeping himself free of the problem websites – he will have to get rid of his computer or do something about those websites, if he wants his culpability to be diminished – if he wants to avoid the near occasion of committing a mortal sin, which is required of him. God bless you.
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For the most part, I agree with what you are saying. It just seems to me that the OP is indeed attempting to end his habitual sins. Him posting on this forum, for example, is an example of reaching out for help. Can he do more? I’m sure he can. But to say that each and every time he falls into a sin of impurity is a mortal sin when the OP has provided you with the knowledge that he is taking steps to change his habits is a bit extreme. The remedy for such a sin is not getting rid of the computer (this could be helpful, but is certainly not required), but prayer, spiritual direction and frequent reception of the sacraments. Does the Church really teach that if one does not consult a medical physician or professional to help him end his habitual impurity that he is culpable of mortal sin when he gives into temptation? I have certainly never heard of this teaching. In today’s society the “near occasion of sin” is literally everywhere. You can’t turn on the radio or TV without being bombarded by sex. The fact is, he won’t be able to escape it. That’s why he’ll need to learn to live in a world where impurity is everywhere. He needs to learn to live with it without falling into it. This, I feel, can best be achieved through prayer and the sacraments. Obviously, only his confessor would ultimately be able to determine if the OP’s reception of the Eucharist with these unconfessed sins on his soul would be spiritual beneficial or sacrilegious, depending on whether or not he truly is culpable of mortal sin.
 
christus_vincit said:
For the most part, I agree with what you are saying. It just seems to me that the OP is indeed attempting to end his habitual sins. Him posting on this forum, for example, is an example of reaching out for help. Can he do more? I’m sure he can. But to say that each and every time he falls into a sin of impurity is a mortal sin when the OP has provided you with the knowledge that he is taking steps to change his habits is a bit extreme. The remedy for such a sin is not getting rid of the computer (this could be helpful, but is certainly not required), but prayer, spiritual direction and frequent reception of the sacraments. Does the Church really teach that if one does not consult a medical physician or professional to help him end his habitual impurity that he is culpable of mortal sin when he gives into temptation? I have certainly never heard of this teaching. In today’s society the “near occasion of sin” is literally everywhere. You can’t turn on the radio or TV without being bombarded by sex. The fact is, he won’t be able to escape it. That’s why he’ll need to learn to live in a world where impurity is everywhere. He needs to learn to live with it without falling into it. This, I feel, can best be achieved through prayer and the sacraments. Obviously, only his confessor would ultimately be able to determine if the OP’s reception of the Eucharist with these unconfessed sins on his soul would be spiritual beneficial or sacrilegious, depending on whether or not he truly is culpable of mortal sin.
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Yes, the Church does teach that one needs to be seeking professional help for one’s compulsion if one in confession is to have one’s culpability diminished. We are obligated to avoid unnecessary occasions of committing mortal sin – and prayer, though very powerful, is not enough for one with a compulsion – the original poster must get rid of his computer, his near occasion for committing mortal sin – or at least he must have his access to the problem websites completely restricted. We’ll have to agree to disagree. God bless you.
 
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