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GilChrist77
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So, there’s been yet another change in my discernment ( and I know full well that this could change yet again, this is the fourth order I’ve been sure about.
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I really strongly feel like I’m called to the SMME, I felt so at home there, and I’ve always thought of maybe being a teacher and in April when I went to Mariazell, I asked Mary to help me love and honor her more. On Thursday my mom and I went to the first vows and during the Mass, when the Sisters were prostrate on the ground in front of the alter, I saw myself sometime in the future prostrate in front of the alter in a white habit and black veil. I kind of brushed it aside because I was still sure that I was going to NYC. Friday morning I was kind of thinking that maybe I wasn’t so sure about the Sisters of Life. I talked to my mom a bit about it but then she had to leave. I was praying about it and all of a sudden I felt God say to me, Betsy, the reason you heard me call you to NYC was so I could find out three things about you. Are you willing to go live in a big city even though you don’t like big cities at ALL. Are you willing to live that far from your family, and are you willing to but aside your desire to come to me ASAP and wait if that’s what I want you to do. ( A couple of weeks ago I was in Adoration and I finally was able to surrender to the Lord my impatience and frustration.) A couple of weeks ago you showed me that you are willing to do those things because it’s my will for you. I’m here to tell you that you aren’t going to have to do those three things, you are going to enter the SMME next year. I freaked out and couldn’t stop laughing or crying or shaking. I’m crying again. I’m so excited about it, it’s insane! I’m going on a discernment retreat in November and I can’t wait! Yet it’s starting to sink in that I only have one year left with my family, I’m trying not to think about it so much yet, but it’s really hard for me. I’m really having mixed feelings about it and would appreciate prayers!
JMJ+
~Betsy
Totus tuus Maria!
)I really strongly feel like I’m called to the SMME, I felt so at home there, and I’ve always thought of maybe being a teacher and in April when I went to Mariazell, I asked Mary to help me love and honor her more. On Thursday my mom and I went to the first vows and during the Mass, when the Sisters were prostrate on the ground in front of the alter, I saw myself sometime in the future prostrate in front of the alter in a white habit and black veil. I kind of brushed it aside because I was still sure that I was going to NYC. Friday morning I was kind of thinking that maybe I wasn’t so sure about the Sisters of Life. I talked to my mom a bit about it but then she had to leave. I was praying about it and all of a sudden I felt God say to me, Betsy, the reason you heard me call you to NYC was so I could find out three things about you. Are you willing to go live in a big city even though you don’t like big cities at ALL. Are you willing to live that far from your family, and are you willing to but aside your desire to come to me ASAP and wait if that’s what I want you to do. ( A couple of weeks ago I was in Adoration and I finally was able to surrender to the Lord my impatience and frustration.) A couple of weeks ago you showed me that you are willing to do those things because it’s my will for you. I’m here to tell you that you aren’t going to have to do those three things, you are going to enter the SMME next year. I freaked out and couldn’t stop laughing or crying or shaking. I’m crying again. I’m so excited about it, it’s insane! I’m going on a discernment retreat in November and I can’t wait! Yet it’s starting to sink in that I only have one year left with my family, I’m trying not to think about it so much yet, but it’s really hard for me. I’m really having mixed feelings about it and would appreciate prayers!
JMJ+
~Betsy
Totus tuus Maria!
I gave her the same advice I’m giving you. 
