Anger towards God, prayers requested

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Dear Brothers and Sisters in Christ,

I feel a lot of anger and resentment towards God. I was molested by an aunt when I was almost 4, and then by an uncle when I was around 8.

Today, when I’m going through very difficult times, I’m questioning my faith in God, because I feel it was his fault that I was molested. If he didn’t do anything to stop those people from doing that to an innocent little boy, how can I trust Him to take care of me now as an adult?

Some people have told me that it was Satan’s fault, or my aunt and uncle’s own sins. But I ask them, why did God allow that to happen to a little boy? If he’s all mighty and powerful, why didn’t he stop them?

I ask for your prayers. I want to regain my faith in God. I want to, in order to face these very difficult times in my life.

Thank you.
Pablo
 
I am praying for you! If it is any help, I’ve found the best way to deal with anger towards God is to tell him so. Let him have it. He’s a big guy and He can take it. Be brutally honest. He doesn’t want bad stuff to happen to us, but He can turn bad to good, and our being totally honest with Him in telling Him how we feel brings us ever so much closer to Him than just pretty pious sentiments.

(You would blush to hear how I’ve spoken to God at times, but I assure you, He has provided much consolation out of those prayers of anger).

Praying for you!
 
pabloSD said:
Dear Brothers and Sisters in Christ,

I feel a lot of anger and resentment towards God. I was molested by an aunt when I was almost 4, and then by an uncle when I was around 8.

Today, when I’m going through very difficult times, I’m questioning my faith in God, because I feel it was his fault that I was molested. If he didn’t do anything to stop those people from doing that to an innocent little boy, how can I trust Him to take care of me now as an adult?

Some people have told me that it was Satan’s fault, or my aunt and uncle’s own sins. But I ask them, why did God allow that to happen to a little boy? If he’s all mighty and powerful, why didn’t he stop them?

I ask for your prayers. I want to regain my faith in God. I want to, in order to face these very difficult times in my life.

Thank you.
Pablo
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Hi Pablo, I’m sincerely sorry this happened to you. In most cases, maybe in all cases God will let people do whatever the **** they wanna do. So if you want to have faith in a God that will keep you safe from danger and from bad things happening, this is the wrong God.

I remember watching something on the news a long time ago when there was this story about a Belgian man who would abduct young girls, hold them captive in his home and sexually abuse them. At some point he was in jail for an unrelated offense and there was a police search in his house related to car thefts. “There are documented reports that police searched Dutroux’s house on 13 December 1995 and again six days later in relation to his car theft charge. During this time, Julie Lejeune and Mélissa Russo were still alive in the basement dungeon, but the police failed to discover them. Since the search was unrelated to kidnapping charges, police searching the house had no dogs or specialised equipment that might have discovered the girls’ presence, and they failed to notice the significance of the freshly plastered and painted wall that concealed the dungeon, in an otherwise decrepit and dirty basement. While in the basement, officers heard children’s cries, which they decided had come from the street outside.” Some say it’s God’s permissive will, that is he won’t stop people from doing horrible things and won’t interfere.
According to the Bible, God is able to turn these things to our advantage, somehow. That's the theory. And I'd be a liar if I told you that I've seen this materialize in my life or in the lives of the people I've known. The question remains: how can you fully rely on and trust someone who has a consistent track record of being unreliable and untrustworthy? Answer: it can't be done, some people might fake it, though. For someone who isn't born with the right set of parents, environment, circumstances and genes, thousands upon thousands of novenas won't even give you a quarter of the self-esteem, self-worth, self-confidence, basic trust that someone blessed with all of the above enjoys. The way of the cross is carrying one's cross, sometimes feeling utterly miserable, and Heaven may be at the end of one's life. God/Jesus is NOT in the business of making our lives pleasant, happy or anxiety-free. Mother Theresa will be my witness, of all the people whom God could have given a break, you'd think it'd be her, but she had to suffer terrible bouts of depression and doubts. I feel sorry for all the hurting people expecting comfort and healing from God, if you could get true healing and comfort from God, don't worry the world would know it. Sadly, growing up i learned two things: the world can't be trusted and neither can God. I don't like things sugar-coated to make God look good.
 
Dear pablo, I will pray for your intentions, but may I ask if you have received some help to deal with the awful things that happened to you as a child? My first therapist, a former priest (left by choice), told me that anger uses up a lot of energy, which you could use for other things–like things to make you happy. It is very true. Sending out some prayers…

Our Father, Who art in Heaven, hallowed be Thy Name. Thy Kingdom come. Thy Will be done, on earth as it is in Heaven. Give us this day our daily bread and forgive us our trespasses, as we forgive those who trespass against us. And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil. Amen.

Hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with thee. Blessed art thou amongst women and blessed is the Fruit of thy womb, Jesus. Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners, now and at the hour of our death. Amen.

Glory be to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit, as it was in the beginning, is now and ever shall be, world without end. Amen.

Memorare
Remember, O most gracious Virgin Mary, that never was it known that anyone who fled to thy protection, implored thy help, or sought thy intercession was left unaided. Inspired by this confidence, I fly unto thee, O Virgin of virgins, my mother. To thee do I come, before thee I stand, sinful and sorrowful. O Mother of the Word Incarnate, despise not my petitions, but in thy mercy hear and answer me. Amen.
 
I entrust you to the loving care of the Blessed Virgin Mary and pray that you reflect on the extreme tortures Our Lord permitted his Son Jesus to go through in order that his holy will be accomplished: that men be saved. I pray that you know that God permits evil only to draw forth a greater good from it. May this horrible experience you had bring forth good fruits in your life, fruits of heroic forgiveness and courage, patience and faith, surrender and self-abandonment, surer hope and deepened charity. May you come to trust and have confidence in Our Lord’s inscrutable wisdom, his all-goodness and his great omnipotence. May you suffer in this life with Jesus so you can be glorified with Him in the next life. I pray that you turn to the Blessed Virgin Mary for her help with your anger and brokenness. May you ask her for her heart and dispositions with which to forgive and heal. May you reflect on all that she went through and all that she had to forgive, and be a perfect imitator of her heroic qualities. Amen.
 
Praying for you, Pablo…

Our Father, Who art in Heaven, hallowed be Thy Name. Thy Kingdom come. Thy Will be done, on earth as it is in Heaven. Give us this day our daily bread and forgive us our trespasses, as we forgive those who trespass against us. And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil. Amen.

Hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with thee. Blessed art thou amongst women and blessed is the Fruit of thy womb, Jesus. Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners, now and at the hour of our death. Amen.

Glory be to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit, as it was in the beginning, is now and ever shall be, world without end. Amen.

Memorare
Remember, O most gracious Virgin Mary, that never was it known that anyone who fled to thy protection, implored thy help, or sought thy intercession was left unaided. Inspired by this confidence, I fly unto thee, O Virgin of virgins, my mother. To thee do I come, before thee I stand, sinful and sorrowful. O Mother of the Word Incarnate, despise not my petitions, but in thy mercy hear and answer me. Amen.
 
Hail, holy Queen, Mother of mercy,
our life, our sweetness, and our hope.
To you we cry, poor banished children of Eve,
to you we send up our sighs,
mourning and weeping in this valley of tears.
Turn, then, most gracious advocate,
your eyes of mercy toward us,
and after this our exile,
show us the blessed fruit of your womb, Jesus
O clement, O loving, O sweet Virgin Mary. Amen.
 
pabloSD said:
Dear Brothers and Sisters in Christ,

I feel a lot of anger and resentment towards God. I was molested by an aunt when I was almost 4, and then by an uncle when I was around 8.

Today, when I’m going through very difficult times, I’m questioning my faith in God, because I feel it was his fault that I was molested. If he didn’t do anything to stop those people from doing that to an innocent little boy, how can I trust Him to take care of me now as an adult?

Some people have told me that it was Satan’s fault, or my aunt and uncle’s own sins. But I ask them, why did God allow that to happen to a little boy? If he’s all mighty and powerful, why didn’t he stop them?

I ask for your prayers. I want to regain my faith in God. I want to, in order to face these very difficult times in my life.

Thank you.
Pablo
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Praying for you, PabloSD! :gopray:
 
KC2844 said:
Praying for you, PabloSD! :gopray:
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…and wishing I had an answer for you.

I am struggling with anger and mistrust of God (at times) as well, though I’m very embarrassed to tell you how silly the reason behind those feelings are. The truth is most days I feel like I take one step forward and two steps back when it comes to healing/eliminating those feelings. That’s actually why I joined the CAF, hoping to get answers.

I actually searched “anger towards god” (my Achilles’ heel at the moment) and this and a handful of other posts came up.

Anyway, I’m so sorry that you had to go through such horrible things as a little boy. I’m also sorry (again) that I don’t have a good answer for your (very valid–in my eyes) question.

One thing I do know, though, is that God does love you so very much, more than you could ever imagine. And, I do know how very hard that is to believe when you don’t “feel” loved. (Not in anyway to minimize what you have gone through as simply “not feeling loved” by God! I know it must be so much more than that.)

I also agree with another poster who told you to tell Him so! Yes, tell Him! Scream it if you have to. “This hurts!” or “I’m so angry with You!” or even “Why?!” But, just keep talking to Him. He is there and He does care.

I so hope He wraps you in His peace.

Like I said, I am praying for you!
 
Hail Mary full of grace
the Lord is with thee
Blessed art thou amongst women
and blessed is the fruit of thy womb Jesus
Holy Mary Mother of God
pray for us sinners now and at the hour of our death
Amen.

Dear Mary, holy mother of God, please intercede for Pablo so that he may be healed. Bless him with peace and joy!
 
Praying as I type this. Be strong, dear one. God gives others free will but He will use all things for a greater good…somehow something very good will come from this horror in your life but you may never know it on this earth. Go ahead and get mad at God…he can take it…just make sure you keep talking to Him! He never has and never will stop loving you and His heart aches for your pain.
 
Lord God, touch this place with Your gentle hand.
Let Your peace pour into the soreness,
wash away the pain, heal the damage and give new strength by Your Holy Spirit.
Help us to forgive, to renounce any bitterness or resentment and receive the healing touch of Jesus.
Amen.

I found this and thought you may like to try it.

How to pray for forgiveness,

Hold in your mind someone you find it hard to forgive (this may be yourself also)
When you are ready pray for that person, asking God to love and bless them.
Be specific and generous in your prayer.

If you find anger still there tell God about that, don’t pretend.
You will be able to forgive when the time comes.

If you will see this person again imagine yourself being different with them,
the difference forgiveness will make.

If you won’t see them again or if they have died simply open your hands
to let go of the anger and hand them over to God.

If you are not ready to forgive yet simply pray for the grace of forgiveness.
There is no need to feel guilty, forgiveness takes time and healing.

If the anger is still strong you may need to find a way to let it out.
A way that is safe and doesn’t harm anyone,
such as punching a pillow or throwing rocks into the sea.

Thank God for this time of prayer
Amen.
 
Still praying, God bless you, and I along with many others here do care very much. We’re praying for you.
 
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