No worries, Edwin. I equally wish you well, always have. You have a brilliant mind for religion, truly brilliant. The amount of history and scholarship you’re able to devour and synthesize, it’s remarkable. I’ve always felt that way.
I don’t pretend to be an expert on this by a longshot. I’m a modest amateur student of Christianity. I think sometimes the Orthodox try to downplay the role of the papacy, especially during tense times like the Iconoclast controversies. It was the Imperium and Constantinople that was the problem and the pope played a tremendous role. In squashing heresies, the popes were key. I hate it when the Bishop of Rome is downplayed. But I cannot see the unilateral powers that were granted him in recent centuries being present pre-schism.
It seems like the Schism was caused more from a growing apart than anything. Language barriers, liturgical differences, having “two Romes,” barbarian invasions, Islam, mutual distrust, etc. But I do think the papacy is a problem for reunion and that’s why I think reunion will never happen. I think there is some self-fullfilling prophecy and circular reasoning in the papacy.
When I look at the liturgy, like on my thread that I started, I’m at a “proof is in the pudding stage.” Maybe it’s a phase I’ll grow out of? I went to confession today actually but plan on attending Divine Liturgy this Sunday again. I’m ecclectic!

The Divine Liturgy is so untainted by modernity, so unspoiled, and the lex orandi lex credendi approach is something I do “get.” The Novus Ordo liturgy honestly makes me nervous!