Hello KingAlfred,
You know, in the past you’ve been one of the few to respond on a regular basis to many of my threads where I despaired in my salvation and the authority of Christ and his Church. Whether this was intentional is not really important: you had something to say which could potentially help an ailing Catholic, and you said it. It need not be any deeper than that.
Now it’s my turn – except that I have nothing unique or even encouraging to say. It truly is a shame that you missed celebrating the Eucharist all for an elderly bishop who might just be showing his age a little too much. Since I attend a parish where one priest just recently turned 80 (God bless his soul), you can imagine how diverted he can get when it comes to discussing something relevant to the Scripture readings as he darts between personal experiences, lives of the saints, what the text says, etc. And he’s doing this all on the fly. Yes, it can become tiring, especially when you hear the same stories several times over, but I try to pay attention just to see if maybe there isn’t some lesson I could potentially learn. Most of the time there’s not, but I’m also amazed by how this aging man has affected my life through some of the strangest stories!
We all get fed up with the Church and her Rules and her Reasons sometimes. Sometimes she can seem like a loving mother who loves her children so much that it seems suffocating and like a prison – and we wonder, “When do I get to leave home?” – but you never get to leave home because home is home. Just ask Bruce Springsteen, of all people. Here is a former Catholic who, for all we know, hasn’t yet returned to the Church in full, but writes songs based around Catholic-influenced themes of light, darkness, water, love, and “the rising” (resurrection) and wears Catholic medals (as jewelry). Choice or obedience or not, it’s where you’ll likely always come to even if one particular “father” seems a bit rambling.
I apologize if this didn’t help any at all, but only wanted to offer you what you’ve offered me.
God bless.