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Edy
Guest
I first heard the Lords voice when asking for the gift of forgiveness.
I had just given myself to Christ and discovered much darkness in my heart.
There were people I had to forgive but I knew I couldn’t do it.
I’d sooner leave them bleeding in a ditch somewhere than forgive them, and I had to forgive myself too for the things I had done but found it all too difficult.
There’s a walking track through some forestry at the back of my town, so I decided to get some peace and quite time, to think.
I took my pocket Bible with me and found passage after passage that spoke to me in volumes, that would even bring to my attention things I hadn’t thought about, of which had bothered me for my lifetime.
Walking through nature, I admired much of Gods work, thanked him and told him how much I appreciate his artistic creations.
Then I stumbled on a fork in the track.
To the left, read exit and it looked over grown, so I went to the right which was well used and wide.
I walked about 10 meters and got down on my knees to pray, but within 30 seconds a biker came flying around the corner, so I carried on walking.
Another 10 meters or so, I found a cave with knee deep water, and I asked our Lord if he wanted me to go in there and pray.
It had been overcast with grey clouds for the last 2 hours but hadn’t rained, so I figured he didn’t want me to get wet.
I decided to leave, and went back to the overgrown track that read “exit”.
Two steps in and I realised someone had cut a narrow track through the overgrown blackberry.
I laughed to myself as I realised the first track was wide and easy to navigate, yet this track I avoided was narrow and difficult, that’s when I first felt the Lords presence.
The track was just wide enough to fit my body, but I spread my arms out into the blackberry, looked up and smiled as I walked.
The thorns seems to just slide off my skin, as if I had a force field of protection around me.
This narrow track was about a 20 minute walk, and I spent the whole time wondering if/how I could forgive myself.
The track ended at a T-junction onto a wider track.
While leaving the narrow track and stepping onto the wider one, I asked the Lord “how do I forgive myself”, and at that moment I heard his voice say “you already have” and WHAM, my knees buckled and tears exploded from my eyes
I had just given myself to Christ and discovered much darkness in my heart.
There were people I had to forgive but I knew I couldn’t do it.
I’d sooner leave them bleeding in a ditch somewhere than forgive them, and I had to forgive myself too for the things I had done but found it all too difficult.
There’s a walking track through some forestry at the back of my town, so I decided to get some peace and quite time, to think.
I took my pocket Bible with me and found passage after passage that spoke to me in volumes, that would even bring to my attention things I hadn’t thought about, of which had bothered me for my lifetime.
Walking through nature, I admired much of Gods work, thanked him and told him how much I appreciate his artistic creations.
Then I stumbled on a fork in the track.
To the left, read exit and it looked over grown, so I went to the right which was well used and wide.
I walked about 10 meters and got down on my knees to pray, but within 30 seconds a biker came flying around the corner, so I carried on walking.
Another 10 meters or so, I found a cave with knee deep water, and I asked our Lord if he wanted me to go in there and pray.
It had been overcast with grey clouds for the last 2 hours but hadn’t rained, so I figured he didn’t want me to get wet.
I decided to leave, and went back to the overgrown track that read “exit”.
Two steps in and I realised someone had cut a narrow track through the overgrown blackberry.
I laughed to myself as I realised the first track was wide and easy to navigate, yet this track I avoided was narrow and difficult, that’s when I first felt the Lords presence.
The track was just wide enough to fit my body, but I spread my arms out into the blackberry, looked up and smiled as I walked.
The thorns seems to just slide off my skin, as if I had a force field of protection around me.
This narrow track was about a 20 minute walk, and I spent the whole time wondering if/how I could forgive myself.
The track ended at a T-junction onto a wider track.
While leaving the narrow track and stepping onto the wider one, I asked the Lord “how do I forgive myself”, and at that moment I heard his voice say “you already have” and WHAM, my knees buckled and tears exploded from my eyes
