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Adam, I’m really glad you’re here. I hope you don’t leave; together we’re bound to help, as there are many good people here.
I’m also a former seminarian with a very strong penchant for matters intellectual (four degrees and counting, from four universities). I’ve read a good portion of this thread—but not all, as it’s rather long. Pardon me if I duplicate anything here. I’ll be succinct at the risk of being blunt, which I don’t want to be at all whatsoever.
My short answer: Find a holy priest experienced in spiritual direction, preferably one with a strong intellectual background so the bridge between faith and reason is not ignored. (Ask around to find him. If not, let me know. I’ll try to help.) You must deepen your experience of Christ, experience him as a person, a true friend. This profound, quasi-mystical experience that we’re all meant to have changes everything; it renews and vivifies our perspective on everything, something very difficult to explain except with perhaps a hundred exclamation points? With such an experience, our restless heart can start resting in Christ, to paraphrase St. Augustine.
The road to Christ is truly narrow, as Our Lord himself warns, so we must have someone experienced leading us. On this road we have to beg Christ incessantly to enlighten us and strengthen us. (Seek and you shall find, knock and the door shall be opened to you… Christ really means these words.) But an experienced spiritual director is indispensable throughout our life. I’ve been out of the seminary for just over eight years, and I know I need consistent direction to deepen my love affair with God and my charity towards my fellow man.
My experience of Christ is everything to me. Before this experience—mind you, I didn’t experience Christ profoundly in the excellent seminary I attended—I can’t say I really had found my faith, except intellectually, which isn’t bad at all, just not enough, far from enough… *theoretical, not life-changing. If Christ isn’t changing us, changing our hearts, effecting his redemptive restoration of our fallen self/nature, if we don’t sense this reality in our lives, we truly need a spiritual director who will lead us there. * And we mustn’t fear the cross along this journey.
Adam, I hope I haven’t missed the mark. I assure you of my prayers. Pax Christi.
I’m also a former seminarian with a very strong penchant for matters intellectual (four degrees and counting, from four universities). I’ve read a good portion of this thread—but not all, as it’s rather long. Pardon me if I duplicate anything here. I’ll be succinct at the risk of being blunt, which I don’t want to be at all whatsoever.
My short answer: Find a holy priest experienced in spiritual direction, preferably one with a strong intellectual background so the bridge between faith and reason is not ignored. (Ask around to find him. If not, let me know. I’ll try to help.) You must deepen your experience of Christ, experience him as a person, a true friend. This profound, quasi-mystical experience that we’re all meant to have changes everything; it renews and vivifies our perspective on everything, something very difficult to explain except with perhaps a hundred exclamation points? With such an experience, our restless heart can start resting in Christ, to paraphrase St. Augustine.
The road to Christ is truly narrow, as Our Lord himself warns, so we must have someone experienced leading us. On this road we have to beg Christ incessantly to enlighten us and strengthen us. (Seek and you shall find, knock and the door shall be opened to you… Christ really means these words.) But an experienced spiritual director is indispensable throughout our life. I’ve been out of the seminary for just over eight years, and I know I need consistent direction to deepen my love affair with God and my charity towards my fellow man.
My experience of Christ is everything to me. Before this experience—mind you, I didn’t experience Christ profoundly in the excellent seminary I attended—I can’t say I really had found my faith, except intellectually, which isn’t bad at all, just not enough, far from enough… *theoretical, not life-changing. If Christ isn’t changing us, changing our hearts, effecting his redemptive restoration of our fallen self/nature, if we don’t sense this reality in our lives, we truly need a spiritual director who will lead us there. * And we mustn’t fear the cross along this journey.
Adam, I hope I haven’t missed the mark. I assure you of my prayers. Pax Christi.