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bilop
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Our penance earns us nothing except remission of temporal punishment in Purgatory.Dont even talk like that. I am a nobody. I have sinned my whole life and didnt think twice about it. I have even read books on devil worshipping when I was young. I can never make up for what I have done in the past. Never.
All I can do now is pray for forgiveness for my wretched life. I still sit near the back in Church and I am still scared to go into that holy room where the Eucharist sits.
My first day after 35 years, walking into the Church to go to Confession, was one of the scariest days in my life. I swear lightning was going to strike me. I got there like a half hour early and sat in the last row, staring at the Cross. Tears rolled down my face. Looking at the suffering our Lord went through for us and here I am, rejecting him for so many years, committing sin after sin and laughing about it.
I dont deserve to go to Heaven just because I repented.
I probably will be lucky if I make it to Purgatory. How can you be forgiven so easy? How can the Priest tell me to say 5 Hail Mary’s after what I confessed? What kind of Pennance is that? I at least deserved to say 50 Rosaries or something.
I look around at Mass and see people praying, saying the rosary, eyes closed and giving their entire being to Christ. Then I look at me. It’s funny how small you feel at times.
Remember, forgiveness is a free gift of God for those who repent. Jesus paid for our sins on the Cross. Nothing we do can earn forgiveness, but all we have to do is ask.
God Bless