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Tabby
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If so, I really need your words of wisdom.
I’ve done adoration in the past, usually in the evening at 9 PM, but I recently shifted to 1 AM Saturday mornings because there was an urgent need for an adorer then and I am having a hard time adjusting to the new schedule. Here are the problems:
I’ve done adoration in the past, usually in the evening at 9 PM, but I recently shifted to 1 AM Saturday mornings because there was an urgent need for an adorer then and I am having a hard time adjusting to the new schedule. Here are the problems:
- I simply am not a napper – it can take me up to an hour to get to sleep sometimes and then I sleep for hours. That means that on Fridays I am up for close to twenty hours by the time I finally get to bed Saturday morning sometime around 2:30 AM. The good news is that I can sleep late on Saturday morning, but that doesn’t change my utter weariness the night before.
- To combat my fatigue, I take a book that will keep me awake. Usually it is a novel or a non-religious nonfiction book that I know will keep my attention. Naturally, I feel badly about this because it is not a spiritual book, but taking something that keeps my attention focused and my brain clicking is an important stimulant to staying awake. I tell myself that I am at least keeping Jesus company, but I hate not being able to give him more of my attention. I do try to open and close adoration by spending some time in personal prayer.
I’m really starting to worry that if I don’t get the hang of nighttime adoration soon, I’m going to have to bow out. I’d feel bad about that because the trouble it takes to go to nighttime adoration has really sharpened my awareness of Christ’s true presence in the Blessed Sacrament. Why else would men and women all over the world head off to church in the middle of the night to spend an hour in a chapel, often alone but for the Sacrament in the monstrance, unless it truly was God for whom they made the sacrifice?