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Anglewannabe
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I have often heard that things sometimes get worse before they get better. For example, when one starts to exercise since they are building muscle which weights more than fat, they first put on a few pounds but if they keep with it, they eventually loose weight.
And I have often heard of people starting to do emotional healing and at first things are worse.
A day or 2 ago, I had a thought/memory of someone in my childhood who use to bully me. And I suspected that perhaps I still had not fully forgiven that person or healed from the events. So tonight I went to adoration and started to write in my diary about the things this person did and asking God to put forgiveness in my heart. The more I wrote about this person, the more events I would remember of how they bullied me. The thing was just snowballing. Eventually I had to stop writing due to time (I had to get to the grocery store before it closed) and I wanted to say a rosary. So I went to the store and came home. Nothing eventful happened. I did not feel miraculously better but I am hoping that if I keep doing these little steps, things will slowly get better in my life.
Well, all of a sudden, I am feeling a deep fear out of no where. It feels like just a fear that I am not safe. And I really have to wonder, is this some fear I stuffed and now it is coming out? Or is Satan just toying with me.
But all this to say, I have to wonder, is there biblical truth to ‘darkness before the dawn’? Or is that a secular saying?
Angie
And I have often heard of people starting to do emotional healing and at first things are worse.
A day or 2 ago, I had a thought/memory of someone in my childhood who use to bully me. And I suspected that perhaps I still had not fully forgiven that person or healed from the events. So tonight I went to adoration and started to write in my diary about the things this person did and asking God to put forgiveness in my heart. The more I wrote about this person, the more events I would remember of how they bullied me. The thing was just snowballing. Eventually I had to stop writing due to time (I had to get to the grocery store before it closed) and I wanted to say a rosary. So I went to the store and came home. Nothing eventful happened. I did not feel miraculously better but I am hoping that if I keep doing these little steps, things will slowly get better in my life.
Well, all of a sudden, I am feeling a deep fear out of no where. It feels like just a fear that I am not safe. And I really have to wonder, is this some fear I stuffed and now it is coming out? Or is Satan just toying with me.
But all this to say, I have to wonder, is there biblical truth to ‘darkness before the dawn’? Or is that a secular saying?
Angie