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CatholicZ09
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Don’t quit. I go to a parish where we don’t have missals with the readings in them, so we have to rely on the readers to read the word effectively and clearly. Unfortunately, this is not the case. Some of the readers do not know how to read and/or do not know how to project their voices, so more often than not, the Word of God is not read clearly and in a way that people can understand. I have been reading for six years, and many people thank me for reading clearly and slowly. You are doing everyone a favor in your parish by reading because they can hear and understand the Word of God because you communicate it so clearly.I prefer the longer readings, but I’m a a new lector, so I haven’t had much opportunity. Many, many people have come up to me to give me praises for how I read, and they are truly sincere, and ask me when I’ll read again. Some have even told me that I’m better ( both the readings and the homilies) than the other lectors the deacons, and even the priests, and that really makes me feel embarassed. I don’t understand, because they often think my readings are like the sermons. I always tell them that don’t give me any credit at all, all credit belongs to God. I really am humble no matter what anyone says. Even though I’ve been a lector for a few months, I’m seriously thinking about quitting, partly due to that, seriously, and because starting today, besides my always practicing beforehand, even weeks beforehand, for the first time I recorded myself on my cell phone, and I just sound hideous, really… I don’t know what the heck people are thinking, but now I have become very self conscious and very nervous. I’ve never ever been nervous. The very first day I read, I wasn’t nervous one bit, and in fact, very calm and let the scriptures and the Holy Spirit flow. But seriously, now I’m very self-conscious, no longer confident, and really ready to quit. And I didn’t bring into the discussion about all that praise stuff to impress anyone, as it really does embarasse me as I am truly a humble person, and unworthy.
Code:What shall I do? I really want to resign, and I really mean it.
I wouldn’t pay any mind to the recording. I have recorded myself, too, and I never liked the end result. I think we often tend to be hard on ourselves. I hate hearing my own voice in recordings. Don’t sweat it.