Brother Bakmoon
I wonder if you could tell me anything further about “nimitas”, the lights which people begin to see as they enter into deep contemplation/meditation. What are they? I am presuming that it cannot be actual light but rather our mind represents this state as a show of lights.
What exactly are these mental phenomena?
I suppose there are many people who have experienced patterns of light while in a meditative state. It happened to me once, actually, when I was around 14.
I remember the experience vividly, and I spoke about it on another thread a few months ago, actually.
A kind poster on that thread suggested that I read some of Saint Teresa of Avila’s works and “diagnosed” what had been wrong with me. She wrote:
Here is what I wrote on that other thread (a while before you joined the forum) - could this be linked to any known mental phenomena, images or forms which appear during meditation?
I still do not know whether I had made myself lapse into some self-automated “state of mind” like a person does when they go on hallucinagenic drugs, or whether it was something different.
I remember feeling initially so light, free and at peace - but then increasingly afraid.
I was seeing circular, amoeboid, or tunnel-like patterns and had the sensation of being “pulled” into them as if it were a tunnel. I felt myself increasingly lose control of and awareness of my body, which was what made me feel terrified.
What I personally found strange about my experience is that when I had it, even though I was perfectly healthy, I feared that if I allowed this tunnel to pull me in that I would die.
I cannot for the life of me though imagine why I would have had such an experience. It seemed to come from nowhere in me and was such a shock compared to the pleasant, peaceful way I had been feeling just before I had it. I had merely been through an intense prayer session and yet, what an odd and frightening thing to have happen?
Whether it came from my imagination or what, I never wanted to - nor did ever - experience it again.
I see such experiences as a distraction from our ultimate aim - spiritual imperfections that must be purged from us. This is the work of the Dark Night that St. John of the Cross describes. Therefore we are not to desire, seek or long for such an experience.
The most profound experience of God is that of “no experience” at all, or nothingness, where we come to know Him in the darkness of pure unknowing and awareness, free of all mental images or thoughts and at rest in stillness.
Clearly with all those coloured, concentric lights I wasn’t there and am still a long way off!