**I served in the Honolulu Temple for over two years, among the pujaris, managing somehow to teach in public school also. I truly don’t know how I did it; I was the only one working ‘outside.’ Began in Boston with HK, moved to Hawaii, and stayed with it until converting in 2010. Could write two books on what I have observed, one a kind of sociological, cultural take, the other the deep philosophical and spiritual differences. In fact, not reconciliable, and I can prove this, but do not want to appear confrontational even though chiming in seemed appropriate and necessary.
I came at this from many angles, chanted 16 rounds a day, rising at 3:15 am to serve. I was determined to take this to the limit, so to speak - and chanted 16 rounds a day for many years. As you can see, it didn’t ultimately ‘take,’ at least with me.
There are many many beautiful aspects to Indian culture: food, music, art, people, and variegated spiritual offerings and approaches. Though I spent most of my time with HK, was initiated at the highest levels, and spent lots of time listening to traveling Indian gurus, I did spend time, at other times in my life, with other aspects of Indian thought, including Self-Realization Fellowship. When I meditated using kriya, I did indeed see lights. I went through many intellectually global changes to arrive at where I am now, where my spirituality is fully and single pointedly engaged, and more humbly so.
There are several angles I simply won’t bring up here or even hint at, concerning American or indeed western cultural vulnerability over the last 40 years.
Making the decision to STAY Hare Krishna isn’t one you even need to think about, until the day you realize you are beginning to think about it.
After all is said and done: I am positive I felt as you do now for an extended period of time, in fact, many years, but that changed. It fell away from me as the truth emerged. There is something solid about Catholicism, and Christ.
Please go ahead and answer questions; I won’t be back into this thread. If any one wants, they can go search my past posts which detail my experiences, written closer to the time of conversion. I think they are still around on the forums.**