My husband and I do the music for one of the masses at our parish. I am a classically trained …, he’s a classically trained…, degrees in music, though not any formal liturgical training …
I tried to explain that we do try very hard to pick songs they are familiar with, and that we feel the chant mass is something every Catholic should know, that the Pope is trying to bring back the traditional music… he continued to not be very supportive and repeat himself. At one point I talked over him when he was repeating the same points, completely not meaning to be rude, just a bad habit of interrupting, and he snapped at me… I felt completely awful. I just felt so attacked and not supported at all. I don’t want to disrespect my priest, of course not.
I don’t understand why he’s not supportive. I’m …frustrated. I’m ashamed that I disprespected my priest, but I still feel that we’re right… I don’t even feel like facing him
Nessie, I want to thank you and your husband for all you do for music at your parish. Please don’t feel you are at odds with your priest. You probably feel like you are at odds, but realize you are both wanting to offer God music as you worship at Mass.
You are both wanting the parish to join in song. Feeling you are at odds, must bring a dark cloud over your heart.
I, too, find myself speaking over someone out of a bad habit and family background, not out of a disrespect and try to avoid doing so. I’m sorry he snapped at you.
Face Father with a smile. Begin anew.
I do take music way personally, …enormous amount of heartbreak as a singer, … The fact that I’m doing this at all is a big deal, and I put my heart into it. I don’t take criticism well at all, and it’s less a pride thing than a lack of self-confidence.
Maybe I’m just not a good fit for this parish, … I didn’t grow up here … and I’m bringing in too many new ideas. …hard enough trying to keep this up while juggling a baby and now toddler, and maybe the next pregnancy will be a good reason to step down.
I don’t know if this is a time to step down, it might be a time to re-evaluate with yourself, your husband, and priest, your role with the music ministry.
A lot of us have trouble with criticism, often as you mention, a lack of self-confidence. Ask God for the gift to hear the criticism, take what you need to improve, and let the rest go.
Don’t worry about being a good fit for the parish or what your back ground in faith is or the music you grew up singing in the Lutheran Church and how loud they sang.
Take today, this parish, this priest and begin anew. This is where God has placed you today and these parishioners and this priest are who you are worshiping with today.
Do you, your husband, and child spend time with parishioners other than Mass? If not, make it a point to take time with the Ladies Guild, parish dinners and work days, etc. Let the parishioners see you as their friend. Learn about their families, volunteer beside them. It may make them ready to sing with their friend Nessie at Mass.
There is no organization between the musicians …the liturgical staff. … a different musician at each mass,… barely speak to one another. The dear lady that runs the RCIA program often gives us things last minute, and we do our best.
Maybe you and your husband can suggest to Father that there be some sort of organization, some unity, some guidelines about “last minute” requests. Don’t expect it to happen quickly or everyone to even be on board.
My priest and I agreed I should start announcing the number of each song to kind of remind them they’re welcome to sing, since our song board is tiny and not visible to some of the church. I don’t know how much that will help, but we’ll try.
Our cantor always announces the song number. We do not have a board. The number is announced very slowly with time to find the hymn. “Please join us in singing our Communion Hymn, Number 234, Two, Three, Four.” The cantor sings with arm extended upward, unless the cantor is to sing alone.
Teaching is just really hard for me, I get nervous and ramble and have to look at all the blank stares and feel very judged… I don’t feel like I’m that great at it.
New Mass parts with the changing of the Mass were “taught” before Mass began each week. When our cantor “teaches”… there is no “talking” or explaining from the cantor… just singing by the cantor, music sheets/hymnals provided for the people, and the people practicing the song. Its not a music class, but a “follow what I sing”. You may feel they are judging you, but they may not be. Don’t let what appears to you as a “blank stare and judgment” keep you from singing with them before Mass.
I definitely need to work on communication with my priest. He’s hard for me to talk to, and …his not so great people skills. He upsets folks on a regular basis, . He’s definitely not the kind of priest I can go hug and make up.
Pray for your priest. Also before you meet with him and before Mass, ask God to help you to not be offended by father’s lack of warmth. Like all of us, priests come with all personalities. Don’t let his lack of warmth keep you from communicating with him. He may suffer from problems himself.
Search out other cantors and music directors, or youth choir music directors. Find out their “key” to getting the parish to sing, their “key” to working with the priest. Find them on the internet, drive to a Mass Saturday evening or Sunday afternoon in another parish or town.
Keep your priest informed about your plans. Maybe as you keep him informed, he will decide he wants to be informed by the other musicians. Maybe gradually, there will be unity and communications between everyone.
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