how do you know whether or not I was ever religious; and if I was whether or not I had experiences I attributed to god?
Because by your very explanation and grammar, you treat the Infinite Omnipresent, all powerful Almighty God with contempt. How else is one to interpret what you say.
You may well have had experiences, but by the way you describe yourself, you have contempt for God.
I do not mind if you have contempt for me. You may insult me, mock me, offend me, I am mere mortal, you merely give me the opportunity of spiritual advancement by forgiving you. But to speak contemptiously of Him Whose Holy Name is SO HOLY that we are unworthy of uttering it, yet in Christ, we dare to call Him Father. Of Him you speak that reveals what you really think and what you really believe.
You attribute to 'psychological illusion# those physical events that others have felt but which you have not. How do you attribute to ‘mental’ those things which were physical?
Does rather suggest you are clutching at straws.
How can you dismiss experiences about which you know nothing?
How can you dismiss as dilusional those things which others have felt, seen, heard and touched?
What if a scientist says ‘such and such is real’ but you cannot grasp it, do you say ‘ah but that is delusional!’ I think that maybe if that is the case, you need to look again at quantum mechanics.
I doubt very much you have ever had any experiences of Almighty God, much less so tangible ‘real time’ live events. I guess that you were once a believer but lost it rather than surrendered it ‘in the words of Scripture: to those that have not, even what they have will be taken away!’ You have lost and now you are angry with God and want to pick fight with everyone else.
Your loss is YOUR CHOSING. All you have to do is to confess your sin and you will be reconciled and you too will begin to live and learn and experience. But I suspect you will not do that as you are just too arrogant.
Go on, prove me wrong!
Blessings and peace.