NewMommy, I’m so sorry that you have to sleep with those butterflies tonight. I can relate-- I’m a father of twin 5 year old girls. I’ve had this twisted notion in my head that the Lord was going to take me away from them at some point in their childhood, that they’re just too wonderful a gift-- almost like I feel I don’t deserve them somehow. I had a little health scare myself about 3 months ago, spent a couple of days in the hospital for tests-- everything turned out fine. I just realize that the only thing I can control is my effort in working out my relationship with the Lord. He knows how badly I want to be in my daughters’ lives for the long haul. Whenever he takes me, he takes me. I just want to make sure that I am cooperating with his grace, so that my soul will be as prepared as possible on that day known only to God when I go to meet him.
I just lifted you up in prayer. May the Lord Jesus Christ grant you the strength you need to get through the night, make that phone call tomorrow, and deal with whatever news awaits you. If for whatever reason there is a concern related to your pap smear, may the Lord provide you with speedy healing and a long life of joy with your precious little girl. In the name of the Lord Jesus Christ I pray, Amen!