I’ve been thinking about this s’more.
The priest I confessed too was very kind, really had a holy demeanor to him (I love dominicans - so learned and so humble). He told me explicitly that I’d made a good confession and showed true contrition, and also tole me to remember that “you don’t have to be perfect to receive communion” - not denying the church’s teaching on the state of grace, but basically just telling me not to be too scrupulous.
I think I might just be being scrupulous right now. That this is nothing less than Satan himself making me obsessed with my own sins so as to forget God - a path I’ve gone down before. Or is it Satan who’s putting that thought in my head? Is it God who wants me to be strict, and Satan who’s trying to mislead me into “not worrying so much”?
Anyway I don’t really think anything I did today was a mortal sin. But I want your advice.
And please don’t come in here with the idea that any violation of the 10 commandments = grave matter: there’s grave matter ex toto and grave matter ex genere suo; I’m pretty sure sins of gossip and lack of charity would fall under ex genere suo (“from their class” - that is whether they are fully grave or not depends on the extent of the sin, while ex toto are grave matter always, like blasphemy).