E
erine
Guest
I want to talk about being honest with God. I notice this interesting apparent contradiction that since becoming a serious Catholic I am much closer to God because I admit I am a sinner and try to change it and let Him in. At the same time, I seem to be able to be much closer to Jesus when I am totally honest with Him; that is He seems to actually prefer it when I am totally honest about for example if I am mad at Him and don’t want to do His will or don’t trust Him or think He has really done it this time
I know it’s not really a contradiction, but it’s just funny that being contrite works as well as being humble enough to admit I am not. God is so broad.
I guess I am just so grateful. As someone who fell into new age stuff for a couple years before making it home, it’s so amazing to realize God is alive and a person who wants to relate to and love me, and not some dead impersonal “force” to be manipulated.
Sometimes I almost feel like Jesus gently teases me when I finally admit how I am really feeling to Him, teasing me for trying so hard to be perfect and pretend I’m totally pious and not at all frustrated with His will sometimes.
When I get super honest with him my prayers suddenly seem to be heard more. Amazing.

I guess I am just so grateful. As someone who fell into new age stuff for a couple years before making it home, it’s so amazing to realize God is alive and a person who wants to relate to and love me, and not some dead impersonal “force” to be manipulated.
Sometimes I almost feel like Jesus gently teases me when I finally admit how I am really feeling to Him, teasing me for trying so hard to be perfect and pretend I’m totally pious and not at all frustrated with His will sometimes.
When I get super honest with him my prayers suddenly seem to be heard more. Amazing.