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bluecollarjock
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Hi,
Over the past 18 years I have had many VCR and DVD spiritual study resources. I will watch both Protestant and Catholic just to get a perspective on the differences often because I was so highly involved in athletic ministry and nearly always the only Catholic. I still do Christian sports camps in the summer, and I will be the only staff member who is Catholic yet often there will be kids at camps who are Catholic and things can get confusing or intimidating at times for them if someone leads a chapel or prayer group and starts their testimony with “I was raised in a church that was very ritualistic, no one taught me about a personal relationship with Jesus or to study the Bible” and yea so many people in athletic ministry and in my former work places too are ex Catholics…usually convert to mainstream modernized Non Denominational church. I actually am glad they found a place to be active with God, so I am not here to knock it. Just giving some background.
I may be at a point in my life that is yet another Dark Night of the Soul. I am struggling to read scripture, do devotionals, do a number of my “usual” spiritual practices that used to anchor my life. In times like these I need spiritually fed more, but find trying to pray, Adoration, Bible study, reading good spiritual books, the Magnificant, or other resources painfully difficult. In the past I have been blessed with access to a spiritual director who was a Jesuit, who was a spiritual director for priests, nuns, seminarians, and also a therapist. I got all kinds of good stuff wrapped up in one priest as well had a spiritual support network around me. Now I am in a time and place in life without much of a local spiritual support, the groups at my parish I have tried seem to be more into the social and service aspects of the Catholic faith and not into theology, spirituality, or digging deeper. I am thirsty with no real mentors or guides at the moment. Most of my good spiritual friends live in other parts of the country.
Anyways, since I am struggling I was wondering if there were any easy to watch, high quality Catholic bible study DVDs? I have a full library of Catholic resources, but quality of delivery for many of them is low despite high quality content. When life is going smooth I am so spiritually hungry and tuned in I can watch poor quality made DVDs just for the content, but not now. I just do not want to give up and spend this period in life avoiding or forcing prayer or spiritual reading time that seems empty and fruitless. Thinking if I can possibly get some DVDs I can try to spend more time with God that way.
I am a medically retired police officer, and currently have been going over 6 months with no medical care and no disability income. Waiting on judge’s decision in my case, and even then my former employer vowed to appeal and drag it on longer, or gossip is they and the workers compensation company will continue to find technical things to file even more court cases just to drag things out and wear me out until I give up. In a nutshell the workers compensation decisions to always go cheap sent me to a doctor who did a surgery I later found out I never should have had, botched it, caused major permanent damage to my intestines (hence the disability), and severe chronic pain, illness, fatigue and other issues from infections and being over medicated for years. I was forced to retire, found integrative medicine doctors who got me off a handful or narcotics the workers comp doctors put me on, after two years I was healthy enough to get a masters in hopes to apply the following year to PysD or MFT/MSW/LPC. I also did some very limited part time intern work as part of grad school. This past summer right after finishing the masters with 4.0 GPA and top graduate award, I got a new work comp case worker (happens every 6-8 months super high turnover job). He claimed I had to work full time and he would choose the jobs, that I must not be disabled anymore, and that he was going to terminate my benefits. Well they did…with no evidence…and even their expert witness doctor sided with me that I am disabled still. But that does not speed up the legal system, so I were it not for family I supporting me I would be homeless right now…and the longer this drags on and I do not get my medical care, and have no income to pay out of pocket for medical care, I keep going downhill despite trying to remain strong.
I feel like I have forgot alot of scripture and it used to excite me and draw me in, now I avoid it. So…wondering if some DVDs out there can reel me back in.
Thanks
Over the past 18 years I have had many VCR and DVD spiritual study resources. I will watch both Protestant and Catholic just to get a perspective on the differences often because I was so highly involved in athletic ministry and nearly always the only Catholic. I still do Christian sports camps in the summer, and I will be the only staff member who is Catholic yet often there will be kids at camps who are Catholic and things can get confusing or intimidating at times for them if someone leads a chapel or prayer group and starts their testimony with “I was raised in a church that was very ritualistic, no one taught me about a personal relationship with Jesus or to study the Bible” and yea so many people in athletic ministry and in my former work places too are ex Catholics…usually convert to mainstream modernized Non Denominational church. I actually am glad they found a place to be active with God, so I am not here to knock it. Just giving some background.
I may be at a point in my life that is yet another Dark Night of the Soul. I am struggling to read scripture, do devotionals, do a number of my “usual” spiritual practices that used to anchor my life. In times like these I need spiritually fed more, but find trying to pray, Adoration, Bible study, reading good spiritual books, the Magnificant, or other resources painfully difficult. In the past I have been blessed with access to a spiritual director who was a Jesuit, who was a spiritual director for priests, nuns, seminarians, and also a therapist. I got all kinds of good stuff wrapped up in one priest as well had a spiritual support network around me. Now I am in a time and place in life without much of a local spiritual support, the groups at my parish I have tried seem to be more into the social and service aspects of the Catholic faith and not into theology, spirituality, or digging deeper. I am thirsty with no real mentors or guides at the moment. Most of my good spiritual friends live in other parts of the country.
Anyways, since I am struggling I was wondering if there were any easy to watch, high quality Catholic bible study DVDs? I have a full library of Catholic resources, but quality of delivery for many of them is low despite high quality content. When life is going smooth I am so spiritually hungry and tuned in I can watch poor quality made DVDs just for the content, but not now. I just do not want to give up and spend this period in life avoiding or forcing prayer or spiritual reading time that seems empty and fruitless. Thinking if I can possibly get some DVDs I can try to spend more time with God that way.
I am a medically retired police officer, and currently have been going over 6 months with no medical care and no disability income. Waiting on judge’s decision in my case, and even then my former employer vowed to appeal and drag it on longer, or gossip is they and the workers compensation company will continue to find technical things to file even more court cases just to drag things out and wear me out until I give up. In a nutshell the workers compensation decisions to always go cheap sent me to a doctor who did a surgery I later found out I never should have had, botched it, caused major permanent damage to my intestines (hence the disability), and severe chronic pain, illness, fatigue and other issues from infections and being over medicated for years. I was forced to retire, found integrative medicine doctors who got me off a handful or narcotics the workers comp doctors put me on, after two years I was healthy enough to get a masters in hopes to apply the following year to PysD or MFT/MSW/LPC. I also did some very limited part time intern work as part of grad school. This past summer right after finishing the masters with 4.0 GPA and top graduate award, I got a new work comp case worker (happens every 6-8 months super high turnover job). He claimed I had to work full time and he would choose the jobs, that I must not be disabled anymore, and that he was going to terminate my benefits. Well they did…with no evidence…and even their expert witness doctor sided with me that I am disabled still. But that does not speed up the legal system, so I were it not for family I supporting me I would be homeless right now…and the longer this drags on and I do not get my medical care, and have no income to pay out of pocket for medical care, I keep going downhill despite trying to remain strong.
I feel like I have forgot alot of scripture and it used to excite me and draw me in, now I avoid it. So…wondering if some DVDs out there can reel me back in.
Thanks
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