Thank you for your well-reasoned reply. You are so darned intelligent - it would seem fitting, at least to me, if you would simply come over from the dark-side into the light.

I always wonder, when I read your thoughtful posts, “what’s in it for you?” Why, when you
know that you are doing no more than beating your head against the proverbial wall, and blood is effusing perhaps at a greater and greater rate, do you persist?
I think being thoughtful is its own reward, although, I’ll grant that often enough it does seem like beating one’s head against the wall. I abandoned Christianity several years ago as I was performing my “due diligence” in preparation for starting RCIA and converting to Catholicism from my lifelong fundamentalist evangelical Christianity. I got to know this forum in that context – realizing the poverty and irrationality of Protestantism, attracted to what was at least a nominally coherent narrative of the Christian faith in the RCC, historically, intellectually, practically.
I’ll spare you the boring details, but the short version is: I decided that my errors in embracing evangelical Protestantism were due to my inability and/or unwillingness to be ruthless in my testing and stressing of my own beliefs. I pledge to do that, to
really do that, in preparation for becoming a Catholic, so that it would “stick”. I did NOT want to swim the Tiber and have buyer’s remorse or be anything less than a fully faithful, assenting Catholic for good. That commitment, which I thought essential to coming to Rome, drove me from it, and from Christianity overall.
Nevertheless, I know it may come across as a backhanded compliment, but it isn’t at all meant to be when I say that if I’m wrong, and God does exist, it seems much, much more likely that the Catholic Church is the best/closest to the “real truth” than any of the other forms of Christianity, or other theistic faiths I’m aware of. As you know, I’m convinced it’s fundamentally mistaken, and is not nearly sufficiently ruthless in testing its own beliefs as it should be, but I can certainly appreciate a tradition of philosophy, reason and thoughtfulness that exist in the RCC that is sadly lacking elsewhere. I also post sometimes over at
evolutionfairytale.com, a YEC creationist site, and that always gives me some perspective. We disagree, vehemently, here, but the conversations are thoughtful conversations between adults for the most part. That’s much to the credit of the Catholics and their big brains on this forum. Go visit
evolutionfairytale.com or similar sites sometime, and you’ll see what I mean.
(sorry for the digression, there)
Some “religious” people might be swayed to cross over to the dark-side by your arguments, but, none of us Catholics will. And, generally, when we do, even though we may leave the flock for many years, we tend to come back (home). Now, of course, I don’t have to tell you that I am not speaking about the casual adherent, or, the casual Atheist either. You, like most of us, are not a casual Atheist/Agnostic. All of this seems to be rather poignant for you. That’s why I like you and your style.
I don’t suppose I’ll sway any of the posters I’m talking to, nor is that my goal. I was swayed toward a path toward Rome by thoughtul, articulate, and love-as-action Catholics, including some posters here on this forum, so I do know that while the trench lines rarely budge in terms of the people posting and their positions, ideas are powerful, dangerous things, and the discourse itself has all sorts of effects we, the posters can’t see. I, like you, I’m sure, occasionally get PMs and emails that make this quite obvious, but really, this is edifying just because it’s the “clash of ideas”, and you and I are both bettered by that, even if we aren’t converted or persuaded of anything. Others reading hopefully find something thoughtful and proviocative to consider, and that’s worthwhile. It was and is beneficial to me.
There are so many incredibly intelligent people on this forum. In fact, you know that from your position, as it is harder for us to debate our side as our side is very, very complicated. Much has to be learned, to be presupposed, before cogent, metaphysical arguments can evolve. And then, we have to be fully able to review those presuppositions for each and every opposer.
I agree, it’s really difficult. It’s no job for feeble minds or lazy posters. There are some extraordinary minds on this forum, I agree. Just so we’re clear, that’s one reason I liek to participate here. I enjoy and appreciate being around big brains attached to big hearts, and there seems a good supply of such folk here. Even across the theist/atheist divide I find much more “connection” with that then i do with “worldview peers” who have small brains and small hearts. As above, I’m “hell bent”, so to speak, on ruthless testing of my own views, and here I find a good testing grounds. This is a profitable place for me to prove out my beliefs and test my ideas – a “wind tunnel” of sorts for my atheism.
I want to respond to some of your post, but, have to leave the house. I may not get to it until later tonight, if you don’t mind.
Hope this made sense. I had to hurry it.
Thanks, hope you and Mr. Yost and the rest don’t mind my wandering off topic (behind you!).
-TS